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Saturday, July 24, 2004
Grrr Last Post Didn't Save
I bet you can figure out what the title is all about. No guessing required in a land where Amanda can not think after... well I'm not allowed to because it's summer. *shiftly glances around*
I'm just going to quick write about today before I hit the hay. I don't have the time for this stupied rhyming crap that just always happens. Today I spent the whole day down at our rental house in Pelican cleaning it. This was not the first day and it won't be the last either but there was a good side to it and that was that Job came along. We got there by 12 (even though I woke up at quarter to 8 for Job, mom had to drop Kate off at work at 10:30 and then she had to run something in town or something) and by then we were starving and so we ate lunch without doing anything. Then Job and I hauled the dead tree branches my mom sawed down to the fire pit. Then Job and my mom carried a desk into the barn because I was being lazy and I took the wheelborrow in with the desk drawers.
Then we went up into the top of the barn and heard something squeaking so of course being the stupid humans we are we had to investigate. Job and I convinced my mom that there was a trapped bat and so my mom took the tree cutter and reached up and ripped out the paper over the electrical wiring and out flew one bat... then two, three, four, and proceeded in anywhere from 6-8 bats all swooping around the barn loft. It was much fun because bats don't hurt people but the swooping scares them because it's just echo location to find a place to land.
After that we went out and started from the top floor in the bedrooms and pulled out all of the carpet staples which was pretty annoying since the carpenters who did the job must've been either very lazy or decided it would be a good laugh imagining when someone would have to take them out one day. Whichever one it is doesn't matter because all I know is Job and I had to deal with 50 billion weirdly placed staples. Then we proceeded down the stairs and got the staples my mom missed from the stair case and then I sweeped them down for the most part and Job finished off the bottom two steps or so and then we sweeped them all up into the garbage. Then we proceeded in taking the staples out of the living room which was even worse because they were rusty and I was doing the job with wirecutters so they weren't so much as pulling the staples out as they were breaking them and hurting my hands. Then after that mess Job sweeped the entire living room while I remained completely useless singing and being weird. I don't know about myself sometimes.
Then Job and I took a break and started eating junk food in the warm truck until my mom came out and stopped us and took us in the car to the nearest bar to get dinner. So we sat at the bar for half an hour until my chicken strips and Job's pizza-burger was ready (yea, I've never heard of a pizza-burger either) and my parents food. We went back to the rental house and my mom helped to make a makeshift table and then we sat on step stools. It was just Job and me eating in front of the window in the living room while my parents ate outside. The sun was setting and we had a beautiful view of the red barn with the white trim, the freshly mowed grass, and the many many gardens. I soon realized what we were doing triggured some memory from a movie or something until I put my finger on it and said to Job 'You know, this reminds me of a newly married couple just moving into a new house and having their first dinner even before they have the time to move anything in'. Job just beamed as he agreed with me and we both thought it was really cool because it did feel like we were alone because my parents were outside and it was so quiet and the house was stripped and in the cleaning process.
He was long done before I was so he sat playing with his styrofoam box that his food had come in. I noticed in between a chicken strip and barbecue sauce that he was writing things in it with his nails. I looked over and he smiled as I read 'I love Amanda' many times with hearts. I shared the rest of my chicken because I was full and that's just the way it's always gone. Job could out eat me any day. I professed my love through the 'styrofoam box writing' as well and we both laughed and smiled. *sigh* It's times like those I just wished I were already married and we already had a house and were making our life together.
I know a lot of you are probably thinking I'm insane because he's only 16 (until this next Tuesday, July 27th) and I'm only 17 until September. Yes, we're young but just because we are doesn't mean I'm going to waste what I have with Job to go out with some other guy that will potentially treat me like crap, I won't like, and whom my family won't like especially since Job already treats me like a queen and I have to admit I love every second of it and I tell myself constantly how wonderful he is so I don't take him for granted. Most of the time all I have to do is think about a past bf and I'll realize how wonderful Job truely is. My Liebling. Job ist getting in my head with this German stuff. Hehe, well half an hour ago this started and now it's 2 am so I'll be leaving until next I write...
I bet you can figure out what the title is all about. No guessing required in a land where Amanda can not think after... well I'm not allowed to because it's summer. *shiftly glances around*
I'm just going to quick write about today before I hit the hay. I don't have the time for this stupied rhyming crap that just always happens. Today I spent the whole day down at our rental house in Pelican cleaning it. This was not the first day and it won't be the last either but there was a good side to it and that was that Job came along. We got there by 12 (even though I woke up at quarter to 8 for Job, mom had to drop Kate off at work at 10:30 and then she had to run something in town or something) and by then we were starving and so we ate lunch without doing anything. Then Job and I hauled the dead tree branches my mom sawed down to the fire pit. Then Job and my mom carried a desk into the barn because I was being lazy and I took the wheelborrow in with the desk drawers.
Then we went up into the top of the barn and heard something squeaking so of course being the stupid humans we are we had to investigate. Job and I convinced my mom that there was a trapped bat and so my mom took the tree cutter and reached up and ripped out the paper over the electrical wiring and out flew one bat... then two, three, four, and proceeded in anywhere from 6-8 bats all swooping around the barn loft. It was much fun because bats don't hurt people but the swooping scares them because it's just echo location to find a place to land.
After that we went out and started from the top floor in the bedrooms and pulled out all of the carpet staples which was pretty annoying since the carpenters who did the job must've been either very lazy or decided it would be a good laugh imagining when someone would have to take them out one day. Whichever one it is doesn't matter because all I know is Job and I had to deal with 50 billion weirdly placed staples. Then we proceeded down the stairs and got the staples my mom missed from the stair case and then I sweeped them down for the most part and Job finished off the bottom two steps or so and then we sweeped them all up into the garbage. Then we proceeded in taking the staples out of the living room which was even worse because they were rusty and I was doing the job with wirecutters so they weren't so much as pulling the staples out as they were breaking them and hurting my hands. Then after that mess Job sweeped the entire living room while I remained completely useless singing and being weird. I don't know about myself sometimes.
Then Job and I took a break and started eating junk food in the warm truck until my mom came out and stopped us and took us in the car to the nearest bar to get dinner. So we sat at the bar for half an hour until my chicken strips and Job's pizza-burger was ready (yea, I've never heard of a pizza-burger either) and my parents food. We went back to the rental house and my mom helped to make a makeshift table and then we sat on step stools. It was just Job and me eating in front of the window in the living room while my parents ate outside. The sun was setting and we had a beautiful view of the red barn with the white trim, the freshly mowed grass, and the many many gardens. I soon realized what we were doing triggured some memory from a movie or something until I put my finger on it and said to Job 'You know, this reminds me of a newly married couple just moving into a new house and having their first dinner even before they have the time to move anything in'. Job just beamed as he agreed with me and we both thought it was really cool because it did feel like we were alone because my parents were outside and it was so quiet and the house was stripped and in the cleaning process.
He was long done before I was so he sat playing with his styrofoam box that his food had come in. I noticed in between a chicken strip and barbecue sauce that he was writing things in it with his nails. I looked over and he smiled as I read 'I love Amanda' many times with hearts. I shared the rest of my chicken because I was full and that's just the way it's always gone. Job could out eat me any day. I professed my love through the 'styrofoam box writing' as well and we both laughed and smiled. *sigh* It's times like those I just wished I were already married and we already had a house and were making our life together.
I know a lot of you are probably thinking I'm insane because he's only 16 (until this next Tuesday, July 27th) and I'm only 17 until September. Yes, we're young but just because we are doesn't mean I'm going to waste what I have with Job to go out with some other guy that will potentially treat me like crap, I won't like, and whom my family won't like especially since Job already treats me like a queen and I have to admit I love every second of it and I tell myself constantly how wonderful he is so I don't take him for granted. Most of the time all I have to do is think about a past bf and I'll realize how wonderful Job truely is. My Liebling. Job ist getting in my head with this German stuff. Hehe, well half an hour ago this started and now it's 2 am so I'll be leaving until next I write...
Mandy ~ 1:33 AM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Farenheit 9/11
Tonight I went to the movies with Job, Kate, and Mike. We saw Farenheit 9/11 and it was just amazing. I never thought a documentary would be so moving. I cried at one part and was shocked at other parts but altogether I was just amazed at everything George Bush has kept from our nation's knowledge. Like the fact that Bush received a security briefing that was titled something like 'plans of terrorists highjacking planes' and he just ignored it. I loved the fact that when 9/11 happened Bush was in a classroom sitting there as a teacher read a book aloud to the class and even after Bush found out he just continued to sit there doing absolutely nothing about it. How he had a coalition with the Saudis, Suddam Hussain, and the Taliban. It was just so... informative. All I could think was "Wow, I finally know the truth about what the hell our government has been up to these past 4 years and how they screwed us over." More along the lines of Bush but I couldn't give him ALL of the credit of ruining our nation (just 99% and the other percent goes to the government following him so blindly), our reputation by attacking innocent Iraqi nation and killing those who never hurt one American or ever threatened us in any way. Well have a good night all and I highly recommend you see Farenheit 9/11.
Tonight I went to the movies with Job, Kate, and Mike. We saw Farenheit 9/11 and it was just amazing. I never thought a documentary would be so moving. I cried at one part and was shocked at other parts but altogether I was just amazed at everything George Bush has kept from our nation's knowledge. Like the fact that Bush received a security briefing that was titled something like 'plans of terrorists highjacking planes' and he just ignored it. I loved the fact that when 9/11 happened Bush was in a classroom sitting there as a teacher read a book aloud to the class and even after Bush found out he just continued to sit there doing absolutely nothing about it. How he had a coalition with the Saudis, Suddam Hussain, and the Taliban. It was just so... informative. All I could think was "Wow, I finally know the truth about what the hell our government has been up to these past 4 years and how they screwed us over." More along the lines of Bush but I couldn't give him ALL of the credit of ruining our nation (just 99% and the other percent goes to the government following him so blindly), our reputation by attacking innocent Iraqi nation and killing those who never hurt one American or ever threatened us in any way. Well have a good night all and I highly recommend you see Farenheit 9/11.
Mandy ~ 10:29 PM
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Neglecting the Blog
I haven't written in 9 days. Every time I go on the pc to talk to people or to just putz around which suprisingly hasn't been a lot I consider writing in my blogger and then later decide I have nothing of importance to say and then I realized today that I never have anything of importance to say so I was just being lazy. So if this happens again and I try to make up some excuse about how I have nothing important to say just... uhh call me lazy.
So lets see... what's happened since June 29th. My sister had her fireworks show and that was fun because I got to have Job over. There were a ton of people over so at times I was kind of anti-social because I've always had problems with big groups of people although school doesn't bother me for some reason. Sometimes I freak out a little walking down the halls but I don't show it.
Then there was the 4th of July. I had the parade and it wasn't that good because hardly anyone showed up because it was raining and we had to wear ponchos. Then while we were standing there waiting I was holding my clarinet on the upper part which is usually fine but because of the humid weather the cork got really slippery and the bottom half of my clarinet just slide off and fell on the gound and it dented the bell but it doesn't effect it's sound because then we marched and I was so loud I could easily blow my lungs out and cover the clarinet section with the other upperclassmen who were playing.
After that there was an icecream social and Job's dad came to pick Job up and then he offered to take me too and my mom let me go but I didn't get to finish my icecream :(. So then I went with them and we stopped at their house to eat and I had some delicious cheesecake although I wasn't really hungry because my stomach was really touchy for some reason that whole morning. Then we went to the park and watched Beka and her band perform and she did wonderful. Job and I sang kareoke, horribly because we didn't know the song so instead we made fun of it for Amanda Jennings because she'd just had her birthday.
The fireworks were amazing and Job and I sat on a blanket in the perfect place because this year they didn't have them at the golf course but instead on the side of the lake where the park is so they were shot off right above our heads and we laid back on the hill and it was like we were in an Imax theater. Then Job and I just snuggled and watched the fireworks and at that point I was reminded how lucky I truely am to be with Job. Every now and then I take him for granted but it's times like those when I'm deeply reminded of how much he truely means to me and I hope he always realizes that.
Last night Job came over for the first time since the firework show Sarah put on which I think was the 29th or the 30th which means I hadn't spent time with him in a week. Then Kate got all upset because supposedly Job gets to come over whenever he wants although Mike came over two nights in a row before yesterday. I would call that hipocritical but she's been very touchy lately so I'm not going to mention anything to her for fear of her blowing up at me because at the second I THINK she likes me.
Last night after Job came over for a little while we all went to the movies... Kate, Mike, Abbie, Jay, Ben, Jamie, Job, Jean, TJ, Colleen, Darcy, and myself. We went to King Arthur and it wasn't that good but Job and I occupied ourselves with joking around although it pissed off almost everyone else in our group. Then I got really upset when Job told me today on the phone that I was ignoring him last night when all of my friends were pissed off that I was ignoring them so I said to him 'Ok, so if I was ignoring you and I was ignoring all of my friends I must've sat in the bathroom throughout the whole movie or something'. It's ok even though I have no idea why he said I was ignoring him he apologized. Now he sent me this really cool link to pictures of tornados and such.
http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&q=tornados
If you go there and then click on the first image of a tornado behind a leaning shed then a bunch of thumbnails of pictures will pop up and there's an absolutely gorgeous one of a sky called crimson skies and it's such an amazing red.
Well I'm going to get going because I have nothing else to write about besides the fact that I didn't make it into the Y but some crap about how they're keeping my application on file and they're hiring again this fall so they'll consider it again then although I want a job now before school starts so I can see how hard it is and if I can keep one during the school year.
I haven't written in 9 days. Every time I go on the pc to talk to people or to just putz around which suprisingly hasn't been a lot I consider writing in my blogger and then later decide I have nothing of importance to say and then I realized today that I never have anything of importance to say so I was just being lazy. So if this happens again and I try to make up some excuse about how I have nothing important to say just... uhh call me lazy.
So lets see... what's happened since June 29th. My sister had her fireworks show and that was fun because I got to have Job over. There were a ton of people over so at times I was kind of anti-social because I've always had problems with big groups of people although school doesn't bother me for some reason. Sometimes I freak out a little walking down the halls but I don't show it.
Then there was the 4th of July. I had the parade and it wasn't that good because hardly anyone showed up because it was raining and we had to wear ponchos. Then while we were standing there waiting I was holding my clarinet on the upper part which is usually fine but because of the humid weather the cork got really slippery and the bottom half of my clarinet just slide off and fell on the gound and it dented the bell but it doesn't effect it's sound because then we marched and I was so loud I could easily blow my lungs out and cover the clarinet section with the other upperclassmen who were playing.
After that there was an icecream social and Job's dad came to pick Job up and then he offered to take me too and my mom let me go but I didn't get to finish my icecream :(. So then I went with them and we stopped at their house to eat and I had some delicious cheesecake although I wasn't really hungry because my stomach was really touchy for some reason that whole morning. Then we went to the park and watched Beka and her band perform and she did wonderful. Job and I sang kareoke, horribly because we didn't know the song so instead we made fun of it for Amanda Jennings because she'd just had her birthday.
The fireworks were amazing and Job and I sat on a blanket in the perfect place because this year they didn't have them at the golf course but instead on the side of the lake where the park is so they were shot off right above our heads and we laid back on the hill and it was like we were in an Imax theater. Then Job and I just snuggled and watched the fireworks and at that point I was reminded how lucky I truely am to be with Job. Every now and then I take him for granted but it's times like those when I'm deeply reminded of how much he truely means to me and I hope he always realizes that.
Last night Job came over for the first time since the firework show Sarah put on which I think was the 29th or the 30th which means I hadn't spent time with him in a week. Then Kate got all upset because supposedly Job gets to come over whenever he wants although Mike came over two nights in a row before yesterday. I would call that hipocritical but she's been very touchy lately so I'm not going to mention anything to her for fear of her blowing up at me because at the second I THINK she likes me.
Last night after Job came over for a little while we all went to the movies... Kate, Mike, Abbie, Jay, Ben, Jamie, Job, Jean, TJ, Colleen, Darcy, and myself. We went to King Arthur and it wasn't that good but Job and I occupied ourselves with joking around although it pissed off almost everyone else in our group. Then I got really upset when Job told me today on the phone that I was ignoring him last night when all of my friends were pissed off that I was ignoring them so I said to him 'Ok, so if I was ignoring you and I was ignoring all of my friends I must've sat in the bathroom throughout the whole movie or something'. It's ok even though I have no idea why he said I was ignoring him he apologized. Now he sent me this really cool link to pictures of tornados and such.
http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&q=tornados
If you go there and then click on the first image of a tornado behind a leaning shed then a bunch of thumbnails of pictures will pop up and there's an absolutely gorgeous one of a sky called crimson skies and it's such an amazing red.
Well I'm going to get going because I have nothing else to write about besides the fact that I didn't make it into the Y but some crap about how they're keeping my application on file and they're hiring again this fall so they'll consider it again then although I want a job now before school starts so I can see how hard it is and if I can keep one during the school year.
Mandy ~ 4:47 PM