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Friday, December 31, 2004
New Years Night
Somehow I doubt the next line is 'feeling all right'... It could be worse. Job's in another state, my whole family is out partying it up with the exception of my parents and I'm sitting here writing in my blog. Job hasn't called me all day but hey, what can I expect? Don't want him to waste his dad's or mom's cell phone minutes when I know I'm just being extremely selfish. Is it too much to ask for him to call to say 'Happy New Years, I love you.' I guess it is...
Well nothing else is happening to write about so I'm going to play myself some solitaire. Have fun and happy New Years for mine won't be.
Somehow I doubt the next line is 'feeling all right'... It could be worse. Job's in another state, my whole family is out partying it up with the exception of my parents and I'm sitting here writing in my blog. Job hasn't called me all day but hey, what can I expect? Don't want him to waste his dad's or mom's cell phone minutes when I know I'm just being extremely selfish. Is it too much to ask for him to call to say 'Happy New Years, I love you.' I guess it is...
Well nothing else is happening to write about so I'm going to play myself some solitaire. Have fun and happy New Years for mine won't be.
Mandy ~ 8:31 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
The Good and Bad
I finally went to the drs. today. I got a cat scan and they found a hematoma in my face but it's nothing to worry about. Hematoma is a fancy word for blood clot. Now I'm only supposed to go to school for half days and I can wear a hat if I want and they prefer I wear sunglasses. I hope Mrs. Hanson will let me drop Creative Writing and just go for 1st and 2nd hour instead of rotating and just going to 4th hour every other day because that would just be a huge waste of time.
Besides the fact that Mr. Santy is being an asshole and he expects I'm going to have all of my make-up homework done overnight so I'm immediately caught up with the class. However nice that sounds I'm definitely not super woman (especially now, I feel more along the lines of mentally challenged) and I should be allowed the week to make it up.
Even then it's hard to make it up because I can barely concentrate for more than 5-10 minutes at a time and I have to worry about the work that's being given out now. Being absent for 5 days is like only using credit cards when you have no money... you need to buy things like food and such but then you're in debt and with every day there's more to be paid for and you just keep charging that card and eventually you're in such a big hole you're forced to declare bankrupcy and my bankrupcy is dropping my classes.
I already dropped weight lifting because I was supposed to sleep 3rd hour but I found myself trying to do all of my makeup homework and it takes forever!!! Especially Spanish because I forgot every other word and the conjugated charts and just about everything else. Another thing is I find myself having a huge problem in that I can't retain any knowledge whatsoever. Unlike before when I'd sit through a Spanish class and by the end I'd know like 20-30 new words or concepts or charts and whatnot all that happens now is I get extremely frustrated because words intermingle and I mix up their meanings and AHHH! Then I try to type a paper in my native language, english and I forget words I've known for years even up to a decade. Well I'm getting extremely nauseous because of the pc so I'm going to go and hope I don't throw up.
I finally went to the drs. today. I got a cat scan and they found a hematoma in my face but it's nothing to worry about. Hematoma is a fancy word for blood clot. Now I'm only supposed to go to school for half days and I can wear a hat if I want and they prefer I wear sunglasses. I hope Mrs. Hanson will let me drop Creative Writing and just go for 1st and 2nd hour instead of rotating and just going to 4th hour every other day because that would just be a huge waste of time.
Besides the fact that Mr. Santy is being an asshole and he expects I'm going to have all of my make-up homework done overnight so I'm immediately caught up with the class. However nice that sounds I'm definitely not super woman (especially now, I feel more along the lines of mentally challenged) and I should be allowed the week to make it up.
Even then it's hard to make it up because I can barely concentrate for more than 5-10 minutes at a time and I have to worry about the work that's being given out now. Being absent for 5 days is like only using credit cards when you have no money... you need to buy things like food and such but then you're in debt and with every day there's more to be paid for and you just keep charging that card and eventually you're in such a big hole you're forced to declare bankrupcy and my bankrupcy is dropping my classes.
I already dropped weight lifting because I was supposed to sleep 3rd hour but I found myself trying to do all of my makeup homework and it takes forever!!! Especially Spanish because I forgot every other word and the conjugated charts and just about everything else. Another thing is I find myself having a huge problem in that I can't retain any knowledge whatsoever. Unlike before when I'd sit through a Spanish class and by the end I'd know like 20-30 new words or concepts or charts and whatnot all that happens now is I get extremely frustrated because words intermingle and I mix up their meanings and AHHH! Then I try to type a paper in my native language, english and I forget words I've known for years even up to a decade. Well I'm getting extremely nauseous because of the pc so I'm going to go and hope I don't throw up.
Mandy ~ 4:19 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Sorry
I just put up a new blog skin and I have to fix it later because Kate wants the pc.
I just put up a new blog skin and I have to fix it later because Kate wants the pc.
Mandy ~ 8:13 PM
Frustrated, Agitated, and Fated
I can't think, I can't workout, I can't ski... ARGH. I just want to go back to ski practice and still be in weight lifting with Job. My first alpine ski meet is Jan 6th and if I don't hit the hills soon I'm really going to look like a novice as compared to just looking like a novice. *sighs as she rubs her eyes* My headache refuses to go away and it's getting really annoying. Not even medicine makes it go away. So I'm going to go because being on the pc makes my headache worse.
I can't think, I can't workout, I can't ski... ARGH. I just want to go back to ski practice and still be in weight lifting with Job. My first alpine ski meet is Jan 6th and if I don't hit the hills soon I'm really going to look like a novice as compared to just looking like a novice. *sighs as she rubs her eyes* My headache refuses to go away and it's getting really annoying. Not even medicine makes it go away. So I'm going to go because being on the pc makes my headache worse.
Mandy ~ 6:26 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Confused Concussion
So... I stayed home from school today after finding out I have a pretty nasty concussion from my skiing accident last Friday. I'm having problems sorting words and that really sucks because I'm in Spanish and Creative Writing. It's the weirdest thing... I'll be trying to write a short story or something for C.W. and I'll think of a Spanish word like anaranjado (sp. means orange) and then I'll try writing and that word will just keep repeating and then my head voice will start talking and then I'll start thinking about Job and soon I have like 10 things going through my head all at once and I get the worst nausea and headaches. Soon after I give up and go to sleep and that's pretty much all I've done today was sleep, wake up and eat, and then sleep. Supposedly Dr. Kerri Schmidt said had I hit my head again that next day after the concussion I would be mentally retarded now and that scared me a lot.
Even just writing what I want to say in here is extremely hard to do. All I want is my hunny... it keeps playing over in my head... he comes over after school, sees me, hugs and kisses me, and then we fall asleep in my bed until I'm all better again. All better... not like trying to get homework done early for Santy and then him(Mr. Santy) sitting there and laughing at me because all of my words are mixed up. Then he suggests I start from the most exciting part of the story and writing in flashbacks and then it gets even more jumbled. Well I'm going now. Have fun.
So... I stayed home from school today after finding out I have a pretty nasty concussion from my skiing accident last Friday. I'm having problems sorting words and that really sucks because I'm in Spanish and Creative Writing. It's the weirdest thing... I'll be trying to write a short story or something for C.W. and I'll think of a Spanish word like anaranjado (sp. means orange) and then I'll try writing and that word will just keep repeating and then my head voice will start talking and then I'll start thinking about Job and soon I have like 10 things going through my head all at once and I get the worst nausea and headaches. Soon after I give up and go to sleep and that's pretty much all I've done today was sleep, wake up and eat, and then sleep. Supposedly Dr. Kerri Schmidt said had I hit my head again that next day after the concussion I would be mentally retarded now and that scared me a lot.
Even just writing what I want to say in here is extremely hard to do. All I want is my hunny... it keeps playing over in my head... he comes over after school, sees me, hugs and kisses me, and then we fall asleep in my bed until I'm all better again. All better... not like trying to get homework done early for Santy and then him(Mr. Santy) sitting there and laughing at me because all of my words are mixed up. Then he suggests I start from the most exciting part of the story and writing in flashbacks and then it gets even more jumbled. Well I'm going now. Have fun.
Mandy ~ 3:15 PM