I hate to be so selfish and after everything that's happened lately but I just need to vent. To start off I'm happy that I finally got to go skiing again for the first time in weeks. I saw Glen and Bri too and I went with Job, Josh, and Kaitlin. I actually went down Snowshoe and went off the jumps; one time I got at least 5 feet of air and it was freaky but I never fell.
No one seems really happy... or is that just me? I'm breaking down and I have been for quite some time. I don't want to go to college, don't care about my grades anymore and I was within inches of an acedemic letter. I just got a varsity letter for ski team that I didn't deserve. I'll be honest, I hated the banquet. I felt horribly out of place and completely unwanted. I shouldn't have been there... Chris you were smart in not going.
I feel out of place in my own body. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm selfish.