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Saturday, October 21, 2006
BaCooFoRel
I just made that up for a mix from my foursome's nicknames. First of all... Tonight is going to be an awesome show at Dave Bonson's place aside from the fact that Dave Grohl (from the foo fighters) and Lemmy Kilmister (from Motorhead) are going to be there and playing no less!
Squirrel got hammered last night on half a bottle of brandy, Coon's cousins are up from somewhere, Badger is crazed and I've no idea what she's been doing/where her brain is at. I think the concept goes for all four of us that a heart can really fuck with your mind and make you do crazy things.
Well, I'm uber gullable... Dave Grohl is on tour with the Foo Fighters and is currently in California and won't even be in WI until next week. I'm far too trusting. I was considering writing a p.s. bulletin on myspace but then decided it would be taken the wrong way even if to excuse my error in reposting the bulletin that Dave Grohl was going to be there... People would think "Oh, so you only think people are going to see Dave Grohl?" and that's something I can avoid and just claim gullability for having reposted it in the first place and no one's any the wiser... except those who read this blog.
Aside from this...
I just made that up for a mix from my foursome's nicknames. First of all... Tonight is going to be an awesome show at Dave Bonson's place aside from the fact that Dave Grohl (from the foo fighters) and Lemmy Kilmister (from Motorhead) are going to be there and playing no less!
Squirrel got hammered last night on half a bottle of brandy, Coon's cousins are up from somewhere, Badger is crazed and I've no idea what she's been doing/where her brain is at. I think the concept goes for all four of us that a heart can really fuck with your mind and make you do crazy things.
Well, I'm uber gullable... Dave Grohl is on tour with the Foo Fighters and is currently in California and won't even be in WI until next week. I'm far too trusting. I was considering writing a p.s. bulletin on myspace but then decided it would be taken the wrong way even if to excuse my error in reposting the bulletin that Dave Grohl was going to be there... People would think "Oh, so you only think people are going to see Dave Grohl?" and that's something I can avoid and just claim gullability for having reposted it in the first place and no one's any the wiser... except those who read this blog.
Aside from this...
***IMPORTANT NEWS***
The Dracula play, of which I'm in, opens in less than a week... Next Fri, Sat, Sun- 7:30 performances with additional matinee on Sun at 2 pm and the following week the same days so... October 27th, 28th, and 29th and then November 3rd, 4th, and 5th. All Nicolet students get in for free with their Nicolet ID but if you wish to go, you must first go to the box office (located in the LRC a.k.a. the main building at Nicolet) and reserve tickets. The best seats will either be on the right side or the middle so reserve soon because the seats are going fast. Any other students that wish to attend the cost is $5 and I'm not sure about children, senior citizens, or adults.
Other than that, I'm going to get ready for the basement party tonight which means I have to clean my room.
Mandy ~ 1:59 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
Red Play Books...
Dancing, Dancing in my hands... Ok, definitely going crazy. I talked to Dane-face today and he's being an ass... Not to me but to everyone else, I've been told by a squirrel. A very good friend of a squirrel, might I add. Badgers and Coons are just too confusing. It's definitely ok though if the coon and I aren't together... Ahhh, my stomach hurts uber bad. I'm on my second grande capp. 3rd strength, trying to stay awake on a few hours of sleep that'll have to last me at least 18 hours... I've already been awake 9 hours. The first one tasted really good and this is the same stuff so why does it taste... poisonous? Weird. Maybe I should eat something with it.
My game plan for my last hour of work is to screw off another half an hour until Ethan gets up here, see if I can get the mission statement for the peace coalition and then have a reason to be on myspace so I can type it up on the account I created... Woot, 9 profile views, haha. Whereas mine just broke 4,000 yesterday (currently 4,061 views). Then I'm going home and eating something or just chillaxin until 5:30 and then I'm heading back here for another 3 hours or more... it's usually the "or more" part because my mouth proceeds me. My game plan for right now is to jolt downstairs and get a milkyway and eat that with my poisoned capp so my stomach doesn't hurt so much and stops cramping up. Stupid organs...
Anyway, after the milkyway I'm going to rant some more about Dane-face... Or I'm just going to go after realizing I forgot about this and now it's 4 pm and I can leave.
Dancing, Dancing in my hands... Ok, definitely going crazy. I talked to Dane-face today and he's being an ass... Not to me but to everyone else, I've been told by a squirrel. A very good friend of a squirrel, might I add. Badgers and Coons are just too confusing. It's definitely ok though if the coon and I aren't together... Ahhh, my stomach hurts uber bad. I'm on my second grande capp. 3rd strength, trying to stay awake on a few hours of sleep that'll have to last me at least 18 hours... I've already been awake 9 hours. The first one tasted really good and this is the same stuff so why does it taste... poisonous? Weird. Maybe I should eat something with it.
My game plan for my last hour of work is to screw off another half an hour until Ethan gets up here, see if I can get the mission statement for the peace coalition and then have a reason to be on myspace so I can type it up on the account I created... Woot, 9 profile views, haha. Whereas mine just broke 4,000 yesterday (currently 4,061 views). Then I'm going home and eating something or just chillaxin until 5:30 and then I'm heading back here for another 3 hours or more... it's usually the "or more" part because my mouth proceeds me. My game plan for right now is to jolt downstairs and get a milkyway and eat that with my poisoned capp so my stomach doesn't hurt so much and stops cramping up. Stupid organs...
Anyway, after the milkyway I'm going to rant some more about Dane-face... Or I'm just going to go after realizing I forgot about this and now it's 4 pm and I can leave.
Mandy ~ 3:00 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Why Have I Done This?
Dane... Who the hell do you think you are? You think you can just weasle your way into my life the way you did and then even more so becomming... my boyfriend and then the guy I turned to in need. In need of... love, acceptance... He gave it to me freely. I don't know how he said he had a wall up because I felt no such thing. I only felt his heart beating fast when I laid my head on his chest. I thought it was going to break through his rib cage and devour me. Then he tells me it's over today... It was a mutual agreement I guess. We both had our doubts because of, guess what, RELIGION. When he was with me he never held himself back in thought or action and there were actually times I had to hold him back for himself and regardless of how much I would've rather continued I knew it wasn't right for him. He has the moral belief I held over 2 years ago before I gave that to Job and I don't regret it. I don't regret trying to go out with Dane for 3 days and then breaking up only to be drawn back together a day later and have a few weeks of something else without a title. To just be held by him... and he just messaged me this on myspace...
"Subject:
Odd Feeling...........
This just happens to be the first time I have ever made a choice that I thaught was right but feels so wrong. I feel that I have been so dishonest with you about everthing but the whole time I was being as honest as I could be. If I had never met you there would be an emptyness. You made me happy and made me laugh and I hope the same can go for you. Please continue to smile because a smile from you makes any day ten times better. If you want me to stay away I will but to be completly truthfull you are one of the most wonderfull people I know. In the end I am left with a werid felling of emptyness that hopefully will fill with somthing. I know one thing that will fill it but that is no longer obtainable and I truly no longer wish to fill it with anything.
-Your Loving Friend Dane
This is me after five hours of calculus and a severe case of sleep deprivation. If this makes no sense dont worry it dosnt to me ether. "
*sigh*
Regardless we all know one thing after reading that... The boy can't spell to save his life. I don't know... Two days ago we walked out on the island at Nicolet and it was gorgeous... We needed to walk back but we only made it halfway, I walked through some marsh and Dane sat on the shore and he pulled me down next to him and then his lap after I thought it was wet. We stared out on the lake and he just held me. The silence is never awkward and every now and then he'll kiss my hair or cheek and my heart feels like it's going to explode. I've never felt this way before. I'm building my wall back up although it's not working too well.
Dane... Who the hell do you think you are? You think you can just weasle your way into my life the way you did and then even more so becomming... my boyfriend and then the guy I turned to in need. In need of... love, acceptance... He gave it to me freely. I don't know how he said he had a wall up because I felt no such thing. I only felt his heart beating fast when I laid my head on his chest. I thought it was going to break through his rib cage and devour me. Then he tells me it's over today... It was a mutual agreement I guess. We both had our doubts because of, guess what, RELIGION. When he was with me he never held himself back in thought or action and there were actually times I had to hold him back for himself and regardless of how much I would've rather continued I knew it wasn't right for him. He has the moral belief I held over 2 years ago before I gave that to Job and I don't regret it. I don't regret trying to go out with Dane for 3 days and then breaking up only to be drawn back together a day later and have a few weeks of something else without a title. To just be held by him... and he just messaged me this on myspace...
"Subject:
Odd Feeling...........
This just happens to be the first time I have ever made a choice that I thaught was right but feels so wrong. I feel that I have been so dishonest with you about everthing but the whole time I was being as honest as I could be. If I had never met you there would be an emptyness. You made me happy and made me laugh and I hope the same can go for you. Please continue to smile because a smile from you makes any day ten times better. If you want me to stay away I will but to be completly truthfull you are one of the most wonderfull people I know. In the end I am left with a werid felling of emptyness that hopefully will fill with somthing. I know one thing that will fill it but that is no longer obtainable and I truly no longer wish to fill it with anything.
-Your Loving Friend Dane
This is me after five hours of calculus and a severe case of sleep deprivation. If this makes no sense dont worry it dosnt to me ether. "
*sigh*
Regardless we all know one thing after reading that... The boy can't spell to save his life. I don't know... Two days ago we walked out on the island at Nicolet and it was gorgeous... We needed to walk back but we only made it halfway, I walked through some marsh and Dane sat on the shore and he pulled me down next to him and then his lap after I thought it was wet. We stared out on the lake and he just held me. The silence is never awkward and every now and then he'll kiss my hair or cheek and my heart feels like it's going to explode. I've never felt this way before. I'm building my wall back up although it's not working too well.
Mandy ~ 9:42 PM