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Friday, August 22, 2003
Did I Just Notice?
No, I didn't but it's become so common that it's normal... when I'm depressed people don't want to deal with me. Not to sound like I'm trying to play a huge pity trip because that's the last thing I want to do. I understand why people don't want to talk to depressing people. It's because they're depressing... duh you think but what I mean is it makes perfect sense for a person in a good mood to want to stay in a good mood and when they talk to someone depressing it effects them and their mood.
Jason came over earlier tonight and he brought more pictures of Adam and I was so psyched and Adam had e-mailed me today as well and he said the sweetest things. I thought I was going to be in a good mood for the rest of the day and that's what I e-mailed Adam back. Well I really liked all the pictures of Adam and there were quite a few more than the previous sets although the amount of pictures was much less, weird. I was going to scan them in but my brother, Ben was on the pc (the one with the scanner) playing EQ so I knew he wouldn't get off even after I explained my delema. So then we watched a few episodes of Escaflowne and then Jason went on his way at about quarter past midnight.
While we were watching Escaflowne, which everyone except Jason had seen before everyone occasionally talked. Sarah kept freaking out on me for ruining the series for Jason when I only spoke a few words. In fact Jason felt bad and actually defended me against Sarah... for instance at one part Van flies and cathces Hitomi and Hitomi thinks it's Allen and I said 'that ain't Allen girl' and Jason laughed and Sarah bitched me out for 'giving it away' when in the previews it clearly showed Van was the one who caught her but she was in the bathroom so she thought I was just giving away the story. Jason explained he saw Van catch Hitomi in the previews and Sarah still bitched me out so finally I left and layed in my bed for about an hour and then Jason left and I went downstairs and have been on the pc since then.
When Jason was pulling out of the driveway I started crying and I felt so horrible because of Sarah yelling at me. I felt so horrible I wrote Jason an apology e-mail telling him I was really sorry I ruined the series for him (although Jason said I didn't because he saw the previews). I swear she has a strong disliking towards me and it might partially be because I made friends with Jason and she's jealous although all she ever does is push him away and flirt with other guys in front of him when she knows he has this huge crush on her. *sigh* I bet Jason feels bad for Sarah yelling at me although it wasn't his fault whatsoever.
No, I didn't but it's become so common that it's normal... when I'm depressed people don't want to deal with me. Not to sound like I'm trying to play a huge pity trip because that's the last thing I want to do. I understand why people don't want to talk to depressing people. It's because they're depressing... duh you think but what I mean is it makes perfect sense for a person in a good mood to want to stay in a good mood and when they talk to someone depressing it effects them and their mood.
Jason came over earlier tonight and he brought more pictures of Adam and I was so psyched and Adam had e-mailed me today as well and he said the sweetest things. I thought I was going to be in a good mood for the rest of the day and that's what I e-mailed Adam back. Well I really liked all the pictures of Adam and there were quite a few more than the previous sets although the amount of pictures was much less, weird. I was going to scan them in but my brother, Ben was on the pc (the one with the scanner) playing EQ so I knew he wouldn't get off even after I explained my delema. So then we watched a few episodes of Escaflowne and then Jason went on his way at about quarter past midnight.
While we were watching Escaflowne, which everyone except Jason had seen before everyone occasionally talked. Sarah kept freaking out on me for ruining the series for Jason when I only spoke a few words. In fact Jason felt bad and actually defended me against Sarah... for instance at one part Van flies and cathces Hitomi and Hitomi thinks it's Allen and I said 'that ain't Allen girl' and Jason laughed and Sarah bitched me out for 'giving it away' when in the previews it clearly showed Van was the one who caught her but she was in the bathroom so she thought I was just giving away the story. Jason explained he saw Van catch Hitomi in the previews and Sarah still bitched me out so finally I left and layed in my bed for about an hour and then Jason left and I went downstairs and have been on the pc since then.
When Jason was pulling out of the driveway I started crying and I felt so horrible because of Sarah yelling at me. I felt so horrible I wrote Jason an apology e-mail telling him I was really sorry I ruined the series for him (although Jason said I didn't because he saw the previews). I swear she has a strong disliking towards me and it might partially be because I made friends with Jason and she's jealous although all she ever does is push him away and flirt with other guys in front of him when she knows he has this huge crush on her. *sigh* I bet Jason feels bad for Sarah yelling at me although it wasn't his fault whatsoever.
Mandy ~ 2:23 AM