~The Music of My Life~

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

Nightmare

I just woke up about 15 minutes ago (it's now 10:30) from this horrific dream. To start I haven't had a nightmare for a long time... 8th grade sounds about right. Well I can't remember everything because the first thing I did when I woke up was go and sit out on the living room couch. I then returned to my room and wrote down everything I could remember which was a great deal less than when I had woken up.

I was in a hotel watching a scary movie with a bunch of girls. I remember sitting at a fireplace and looking at 2 mattresses on the floor and then a couch. One of the matresses was a coil mattress and was very uncomfortable and the other was just a stuffed one. I also recall getting into a conversation before the movie about the mattresses. Well we watched that absolutely horrifying movie and then we went to sleep. I woke up in a dream and experienced everything through each persons' eyes.

It was like a spin-off of Buffy the Vampire Slayer but with only Jiles and Buffy. There were all these people with specail powers but were weird powers. The only one I can remember was the first guy I saw through. He was like the pope but much younger around 30 and when something bad was going to happen to him his white cloak swirled black. Well this pope guy was sitting at the fireplace (where I had watched the movie from) and another guy was throwing round metal stars that look like soda can tops. Well the second guy who was throwing the serrated tops went up to the pope guy and cut his throat but not enough for him to die and then left him. *that's all I can remember from the beginning*

Towards the end of the dream (if this were a movie it would be the last 10 minutes) I was Buffy Sommers. I was in the hotel and all of the group had been killed different ways. I was running from zombies who seemed to come at me from each way. I turned into a hotel room and ran through the rooms in the bathroom and braced myself with my back up against the door and my feet to the wall. I heard someone come in and wash their hands and then after a while there was silence. I remember thinking about how I could slip out the window if it was a foot bigger and then fall to my death into the black woods.

For some reason there was 2 feet of clearance above the bathroom door and I got curious and looked over and a caucasion brunette popped her head up. At first her eyes were closed but then they opened and were yellow. I clawed at her eyes and she fell back and came up and her right eye (from my view) read 'DOOM' and the left eye (from my view) that I stuck my finger nail in read 'DOOMS DAY'. She came at me and she said "It's slow... it's always slow." I knew she meant my death as she reached up for me over through the clearance and then I woke up.

Well that's all of the dream I remember but it was freaky as all hell and I hope I never have a dream like that again. I think it was partially my fault I had it though because when I was watching Buffy yesterday (the episode where Angel tries to kill himself by waiting for the sun but then it snows and the clouds block out the sun) when Buffy was walking with Angel after his suicide attempt I wished I could be Buffy because it always seemed to work out in the end. What I meant was that I would've liked to be Buffy walking with Angel through the snow but I guess my brain interpretted that completely wrong and gave me the scary side of Buffy.

Well I didn't get an e-mail from Adam today although I can't say I wasn't expecting it because he's back at Camp Shitty. I've gone almost a month without hearing from him so I should be ok if I don't hear from him from another but I'd still rather hear from him.

Mandy ~ 11:13 AM