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Saturday, September 27, 2003
*Growls*
Well I wrote another poem; it's about dancing with Zack last night if you don't figure that out after you read it. Well here it is although it's not good it portrays my feelings...
Dancing
Dancing with him
Our hands apart
Hearing the words in each ear
His and the song
Blending
Like us together
Not feeling the icy wind
No rain but there is
Just numb
When that’s what there is
Nothing just us
Our feet leading
Our hands guiding
His breath
Warm on my face
Against the cold he holds me
Nestled in his arms
Dreaming with my eyes open
Slowed and yet too fast
The moment slips by
Now a memory
Vivid
For now
When later
We hope to meet again
Without knowing
Our destinies
So that's about it. I marched for Homecoming today at halftime and I didn't mess up at all even though it was cold and raining... Mrs. Strong also told me that at one point it was snowing but I'm sure I was too enveloped in the music and marching that I didn't even notice it. Zack didn't go because he had other things he had to do.
When I asked my mom to go to the movies with Zack she told me, we'll see blah blah blah. When we got home she flat out denied me which completely ruined my night. So I wrote him an e-mail and called him up and told him as well if he didn't check his e-mail but coincidentally he was checking his e-mail right when I called. My parents told me he's too young... it doesn't matter to me because he doesn't look or act that young. He's more mature than a lot of Juniors I know, which is a major rarity considering he's only 14. It's a 3 year difference, the same as Kate and Jeff but for some reason the older and more responsible sister gets shut down and why?
Simply, because they can screw me over because they do it all the time and they know if they do that to Kate she goes and screws them over. So really is being obedient worth missing out on great opportunities? Especially when I tell them everything and Kate tells them nothing. I just want to break something because I'm so sick of this; it's so unfair and there's nothing I can do about it. Nothing, since I don't have my license I can't just leave like Sarah and Ben do so I'm just stuck here fuming. They act like nothing either; so nonchalant about ruining my happiness, isn't that what matters? It's not like we were ever even doing anything besides holding hands, which definitely won't make me pregnant. I just want to be defiant and prove my point because obviously they won't take me seriously until I do. Well I'm going to go do nothing since I'll be home alone tonight.
Well I wrote another poem; it's about dancing with Zack last night if you don't figure that out after you read it. Well here it is although it's not good it portrays my feelings...
Dancing
Dancing with him
Our hands apart
Hearing the words in each ear
His and the song
Blending
Like us together
Not feeling the icy wind
No rain but there is
Just numb
When that’s what there is
Nothing just us
Our feet leading
Our hands guiding
His breath
Warm on my face
Against the cold he holds me
Nestled in his arms
Dreaming with my eyes open
Slowed and yet too fast
The moment slips by
Now a memory
Vivid
For now
When later
We hope to meet again
Without knowing
Our destinies
So that's about it. I marched for Homecoming today at halftime and I didn't mess up at all even though it was cold and raining... Mrs. Strong also told me that at one point it was snowing but I'm sure I was too enveloped in the music and marching that I didn't even notice it. Zack didn't go because he had other things he had to do.
When I asked my mom to go to the movies with Zack she told me, we'll see blah blah blah. When we got home she flat out denied me which completely ruined my night. So I wrote him an e-mail and called him up and told him as well if he didn't check his e-mail but coincidentally he was checking his e-mail right when I called. My parents told me he's too young... it doesn't matter to me because he doesn't look or act that young. He's more mature than a lot of Juniors I know, which is a major rarity considering he's only 14. It's a 3 year difference, the same as Kate and Jeff but for some reason the older and more responsible sister gets shut down and why?
Simply, because they can screw me over because they do it all the time and they know if they do that to Kate she goes and screws them over. So really is being obedient worth missing out on great opportunities? Especially when I tell them everything and Kate tells them nothing. I just want to break something because I'm so sick of this; it's so unfair and there's nothing I can do about it. Nothing, since I don't have my license I can't just leave like Sarah and Ben do so I'm just stuck here fuming. They act like nothing either; so nonchalant about ruining my happiness, isn't that what matters? It's not like we were ever even doing anything besides holding hands, which definitely won't make me pregnant. I just want to be defiant and prove my point because obviously they won't take me seriously until I do. Well I'm going to go do nothing since I'll be home alone tonight.
Mandy ~ 5:48 PM