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Sunday, September 28, 2003
Rebellion
Well in the previous blog I wrote about how much I like Zack and all so that might explain why I'm going to do what I'm planning on doing next Saturday. What am I talking about you ask? Well last night Zack asked me previously (like a week in advance) to go the movies for the night of Homecoming (last night, since we couldn't go because he's only in 8th grade). So I was asking my mom all week so I could give her notice and the night of she denied me and I was upset because I was really looking forward to going. So last night all of my friends went and had a great time at Homecoming while I stayed home alone and fell asleep on the couch.
So now I shall explain what happened before I fell asleep. First Ben and Melissa came home from horseback riding and so you know Melissa is a friend of Bens. The last half hour she was here I had her complete undivided attention because we talked about horses and she ended up telling me that whenever I wanted I could come out and ride her horse, Stormy, which really made me happy. I'd say that was the highlight of my night. After that it pretty much went downhill...
I think what was written to Jasmine in an earlier conversation over msn should pretty much cover it so here goes:
~Mandy~ says:
i'm the only one of the 4 children that gets dictated
~Mandy~ says:
and i find it unfair
~Mandy~ says:
omg, like last night i was the only one home for like the billionth time and i cornered my dad and told him that and he just looked at me straight in the eye and agreed and then walked off like it was nothing
~Mandy~ says:
i was so pissed because they realize that
~Mandy~ says:
i said something about how all of the kids are putting them (my parents) into an early grave because my dad was complaining about how he was dying or whatever
~Mandy~ says:
and i looked at him and i said "well all of the kids except for me because i never do anything because i'm not allowed to even though a younger more brazen sister can do more when you know she's done a lot worse than me."
~Mandy~ says:
and he looked at me and nodded and told me i was right and i just about died because he always comes up with some witty excuse
~Mandy~ says:
so he was really egging me on and then i came downstairs and zack called and my mom started talking to him and 5 minutes later she called for me and i asked her what took her so long and she said she was talking to zack and i just about wrung her neck
~Mandy~ says:
and she looked like she was innocent, doing nothing, just talking to one of her friends
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
that is really strange, how come they give everyone else so much freedom and yet you hardly get any?
~Mandy~ says:
idk
~Mandy~ says:
but i just want to cry
~Mandy~ says:
i'm so sick of this
~Mandy~ says:
i have no life
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well did you talk to both your parents and explain to them that you feel this way?
~Mandy~ says:
and when i'm stuck home every night they ask me why i have no friends, how can they when they don't even realize they're the reason i have none
~Mandy~ says:
because i've tried but all i do is get really frusterated because they say some stupid something or other and pin it all on me
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well would they have let u go to homecoming?
~Mandy~ says:
seriously i think my statistics for actually doing something are once every month
~Mandy~ says:
no, because i asked to go with zack
~Mandy~ says:
and they denied me
~Mandy~ says:
and then later like a few days before my mom asked me why i wasn't going
~Mandy~ says:
and i told her she said i couldn't
~Mandy~ says:
and then she was like 'don't pin this on me'
~Mandy~ says:
and like 'my doctor says i can't have any stress so don't give me any'
So then she uses her pity thing on me... psh.
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well maybe your parents dont like the fact that your a junior and zack's an eighth grader
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
but then again jeff was a senior and kate was a freshman
~Mandy~ says:
same age difference
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well my last theory is they see you do something with your life more than any other sibling, you have the most ambition and they dont want you to screw up now (not saying that you would or anything) but they dont want you to ruin your future therefore they are over protective
~Mandy~ says:
i've done nothing to deserve this, actually i'm the least of the 4 that deserves any punishment because i've always done what they wanted me to do, i've never rebelled like kate, sarah, or ben, sarah went off whenever she wanted and lost her virginity to tim when she was 17, ben's always went off and i'm sure he isn't a virgin either and he probably lost it even before sarah, and kate
~Mandy~ says:
and well you know about what she does already
So that pretty much explains how I feel since I completely went off and bitched to poor Jasmine about it. I even apologized after for throwing that all on her and the same with Emily because I told that too. Well that's pretty much the jist of it. So I'm sure by now you're getting bored and wondering how I'm going to rebel. I'm building up some drama, jk. I'm just laying down a foundation by giving some background to explain for me why I'm so mad. So as my name said I clean when I'm upset; well I cleaned for 4 straight hours and then there was nothing left to clean so I had to stop. I cleaned the whole house.
Well Saturday Zack is having a party and he asked me to come. Coincidentally my parents will both be gone for a business meeting of my dads that same weekend. So Zack's dad is going to come and pick me up and take me home just so I can go to his party. Actually his dad was talking to Zack about me and how I'm so cute, and how good we look together, and that Zack should have this party to invite me. His mom is the opposite; she's really weary of my intentions with Zack... haha, what intentions? That I might possibly kiss him? I'm so shy when it comes to that stuff. So I've explained myself now and am going to go.
Well in the previous blog I wrote about how much I like Zack and all so that might explain why I'm going to do what I'm planning on doing next Saturday. What am I talking about you ask? Well last night Zack asked me previously (like a week in advance) to go the movies for the night of Homecoming (last night, since we couldn't go because he's only in 8th grade). So I was asking my mom all week so I could give her notice and the night of she denied me and I was upset because I was really looking forward to going. So last night all of my friends went and had a great time at Homecoming while I stayed home alone and fell asleep on the couch.
So now I shall explain what happened before I fell asleep. First Ben and Melissa came home from horseback riding and so you know Melissa is a friend of Bens. The last half hour she was here I had her complete undivided attention because we talked about horses and she ended up telling me that whenever I wanted I could come out and ride her horse, Stormy, which really made me happy. I'd say that was the highlight of my night. After that it pretty much went downhill...
I think what was written to Jasmine in an earlier conversation over msn should pretty much cover it so here goes:
~Mandy~ says:
i'm the only one of the 4 children that gets dictated
~Mandy~ says:
and i find it unfair
~Mandy~ says:
omg, like last night i was the only one home for like the billionth time and i cornered my dad and told him that and he just looked at me straight in the eye and agreed and then walked off like it was nothing
~Mandy~ says:
i was so pissed because they realize that
~Mandy~ says:
i said something about how all of the kids are putting them (my parents) into an early grave because my dad was complaining about how he was dying or whatever
~Mandy~ says:
and i looked at him and i said "well all of the kids except for me because i never do anything because i'm not allowed to even though a younger more brazen sister can do more when you know she's done a lot worse than me."
~Mandy~ says:
and he looked at me and nodded and told me i was right and i just about died because he always comes up with some witty excuse
~Mandy~ says:
so he was really egging me on and then i came downstairs and zack called and my mom started talking to him and 5 minutes later she called for me and i asked her what took her so long and she said she was talking to zack and i just about wrung her neck
~Mandy~ says:
and she looked like she was innocent, doing nothing, just talking to one of her friends
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
that is really strange, how come they give everyone else so much freedom and yet you hardly get any?
~Mandy~ says:
idk
~Mandy~ says:
but i just want to cry
~Mandy~ says:
i'm so sick of this
~Mandy~ says:
i have no life
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well did you talk to both your parents and explain to them that you feel this way?
~Mandy~ says:
and when i'm stuck home every night they ask me why i have no friends, how can they when they don't even realize they're the reason i have none
~Mandy~ says:
because i've tried but all i do is get really frusterated because they say some stupid something or other and pin it all on me
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well would they have let u go to homecoming?
~Mandy~ says:
seriously i think my statistics for actually doing something are once every month
~Mandy~ says:
no, because i asked to go with zack
~Mandy~ says:
and they denied me
~Mandy~ says:
and then later like a few days before my mom asked me why i wasn't going
~Mandy~ says:
and i told her she said i couldn't
~Mandy~ says:
and then she was like 'don't pin this on me'
~Mandy~ says:
and like 'my doctor says i can't have any stress so don't give me any'
So then she uses her pity thing on me... psh.
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well maybe your parents dont like the fact that your a junior and zack's an eighth grader
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
but then again jeff was a senior and kate was a freshman
~Mandy~ says:
same age difference
I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend in the end says says:
well my last theory is they see you do something with your life more than any other sibling, you have the most ambition and they dont want you to screw up now (not saying that you would or anything) but they dont want you to ruin your future therefore they are over protective
~Mandy~ says:
i've done nothing to deserve this, actually i'm the least of the 4 that deserves any punishment because i've always done what they wanted me to do, i've never rebelled like kate, sarah, or ben, sarah went off whenever she wanted and lost her virginity to tim when she was 17, ben's always went off and i'm sure he isn't a virgin either and he probably lost it even before sarah, and kate
~Mandy~ says:
and well you know about what she does already
So that pretty much explains how I feel since I completely went off and bitched to poor Jasmine about it. I even apologized after for throwing that all on her and the same with Emily because I told that too. Well that's pretty much the jist of it. So I'm sure by now you're getting bored and wondering how I'm going to rebel. I'm building up some drama, jk. I'm just laying down a foundation by giving some background to explain for me why I'm so mad. So as my name said I clean when I'm upset; well I cleaned for 4 straight hours and then there was nothing left to clean so I had to stop. I cleaned the whole house.
Well Saturday Zack is having a party and he asked me to come. Coincidentally my parents will both be gone for a business meeting of my dads that same weekend. So Zack's dad is going to come and pick me up and take me home just so I can go to his party. Actually his dad was talking to Zack about me and how I'm so cute, and how good we look together, and that Zack should have this party to invite me. His mom is the opposite; she's really weary of my intentions with Zack... haha, what intentions? That I might possibly kiss him? I'm so shy when it comes to that stuff. So I've explained myself now and am going to go.
Mandy ~ 3:38 PM