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Saturday, October 11, 2003
Everything Has It's Downs- Even Dreams...
Eventually You Have to Wake Up From Them
Last night was practically perfect. I was with Zack and I couldn't have asked for more. All night we were together from the beginning of my party until the end. At first we all gathered in the living room and turned off all the lights and Anthony was DJ and he turned on his strobe light and we had a lot of fun dancing. Then we ate pizza and had the bonfire. Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves except for TJ because he explained it as 'it wasn't his kind of fun'. Everything was so perfect and I knew it wasn't going to last. Zack was the last one to go home and before he did we, my parents, him, and me all sat around the fire as it was dying away like the night. I'm repeating myself so I'm just going to post a poem. Zack it has nothing to do with you because right now you're the only person making me happy.
Alone
I cry
Pain through my eyes
Hiding
Turn up the sound
To hide my own
Trying to confide in
Myself
I do it
They see right through it
My pain
They don’t care
Pain that doesn’t phase
Except me
Wanting to be with him
Purposely denying
Me any happiness
Some advice
Let it be
I try harder
With effort come more tears
Just doesn’t work
Nothing
Temporarily trying for something
Someone
Eyes swollen
Head throbbing
When will it be numb?
Still longer
Their laughing hurts
Knowing without me it’s better
So alone again
Familiar pain
The only thing that’s always there
For me
If only pain could care
Well it's not the best, then again is any of my poetry since I never write... seriously the three poems I've posted in here are my poems, that's it. It gets my feelings across and if it doesn't make any sense I'm sorry because I was crying while I wrote it.
Eventually You Have to Wake Up From Them
Last night was practically perfect. I was with Zack and I couldn't have asked for more. All night we were together from the beginning of my party until the end. At first we all gathered in the living room and turned off all the lights and Anthony was DJ and he turned on his strobe light and we had a lot of fun dancing. Then we ate pizza and had the bonfire. Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves except for TJ because he explained it as 'it wasn't his kind of fun'. Everything was so perfect and I knew it wasn't going to last. Zack was the last one to go home and before he did we, my parents, him, and me all sat around the fire as it was dying away like the night. I'm repeating myself so I'm just going to post a poem. Zack it has nothing to do with you because right now you're the only person making me happy.
Alone
I cry
Pain through my eyes
Hiding
Turn up the sound
To hide my own
Trying to confide in
Myself
I do it
They see right through it
My pain
They don’t care
Pain that doesn’t phase
Except me
Wanting to be with him
Purposely denying
Me any happiness
Some advice
Let it be
I try harder
With effort come more tears
Just doesn’t work
Nothing
Temporarily trying for something
Someone
Eyes swollen
Head throbbing
When will it be numb?
Still longer
Their laughing hurts
Knowing without me it’s better
So alone again
Familiar pain
The only thing that’s always there
For me
If only pain could care
Well it's not the best, then again is any of my poetry since I never write... seriously the three poems I've posted in here are my poems, that's it. It gets my feelings across and if it doesn't make any sense I'm sorry because I was crying while I wrote it.
Mandy ~ 10:17 PM