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Tuesday, October 07, 2003
Once More
Well I'm glad I didn't have to go to school yesterday because we had a 3 day weekend for teachers in-service. I like having 4 days of school and 3 days of weekend although technically I didn't do anything on my weekend. The only thing I did was Friday night bowling and I already talked about that. I handed out a few pictures to some friends today and did the usual routine. Jake Cihla informed me I'm obsessed with Zack because I talked about him for a few seconds. I tried to explain the whole fact that I only get to see Zack twice a week, maybe whereas he gets to see his gf every day. I asked him how he would feel if he only got to see Kayla twice a week and he said "UH! I'd rather not think about that!" and he just snubbed it off. So obviously he can't fathom how I feel about hardly getting to see Zack. Besides that and the fact that Jake and Kayla's parents consent to them going out whereas Zacks parents are getting there and mine are just evil.
I'm so mad because Vix posted another blog and I can't get to it from this pc and I'd log onto msn and ask her to link it to me but for some reason msn is being gay. I have tons of Alg 2 homework that I've been majorly slacking off on because Heeren only checks it when we take tests and today we had a quiz and for the most part I think I know what I was doing but if I'm lucky I'll get it back with a passing D. *sigh* I'm just not good at school. I'm even somewhat struggling in band and the last time that happened was when I got my solo clarinet piece for Solo Ensemble and that's because it was a class A, which is the hardest and I ended up getting a *1st and going to state and getting a perfect there as well.
I've been pretty distracted lately and earlier I actually went for a half hour jog with Shadow and I tired her out pretty bad, I hope she won't be limping when she wakes up. Shadow's going to be 9 this Christmas, or around there so she's getting pretty old and besides that when she was about 2 she got ran over by a truck and it crushed her skull, ribs, and tore open one of her organs. She still has the scar on her forehead and a huge lump on the side of her vertebrae by her back leg. She's done pretty well since then but now whenever she runs for a while she limps about favoring her front left leg. I love Shadow and I feel bad that she's in pain.
I don't know what else to write about except to say I hope Zack e-mails me because I love reading his e-mails. I actually made him his own folder in my account and there are 51 e-mails from one month of us writing back and forth. We've talked a couple of times on the phone but we aren't really phone people, that I know of. I'm thinking we just need to warm up to each other more and just be able to talk and I'm trying. Ang, Zack's sister has a home volleyball game this Thursday and I'm really hoping Vix can take me because she's taken me every other time. Thanks again Vix, because you are the primary reason I even get to see Zack. I love Vix and she's ok with just hanging out with Zack and me. Last time Kate came and then she actually had someone to hang out with but for some reason I liked it better when it was just Vix, Zack, and me.
Lately Kate and I have been more ornery towards each other and open to taking out our frustrations on each other. Today at lunch in the auditorium I actually made her cry in front of Nick and Vix and they both left because they were uncomfortable I'm sure. Kate hinted to our mom that I kissed Zack and possibly more, which was a lie (the possibly more part) and so I told mom that Kate had Josh over without permission. So Kate got yelled at and nothing worse but now she's all pissed at me when she made our parents even more weary about Zack. My chances of my parents actually allowing me to go out with Zack were slim in the first place and now they're even lower. I'm really going to have to suck up to them. I printed off one of Zacks e-mails and showed my parents last night how sweet Zack is and after my dad read it he laughed and said "Poor bastard" and my mom just kind of shrugged it off and I asked her what she thought because that was the reason I made her read it and all she said was "What do you want me to think? It was nice". I'm just trying to tell myself it could've been worse.
Next year Zack's going to be a Freshman and I'm going to be a Senior and those relationships have happened a lot. I was close to having one previously but I was a Sophomore and he was a Senior. I can name off at least 2 handfuls of couples I personally know who've had Senior/Freshman relationships so what's so wrong with Junior/8th grader? *sigh* I should just give up but I can't because I like Zack so much and he even wrote that if I don't like him not to waste my time on him and I'm just hoping he didn't mean that as in not for him to waste his time on me. Just because there's a 3 year difference doesn't mean it can't work out. He's very mature for his age, emotionally and physically and I'm sure I've probably said that before but it's true and I don't see anything wrong with it. My parents don't even seem to be open to the possibility. Well I'm not sure what else I can possibly write without complaining anymore about the situation so I'm going to go and Zack, start your blogger so I can read it. Hehe.
Well I'm glad I didn't have to go to school yesterday because we had a 3 day weekend for teachers in-service. I like having 4 days of school and 3 days of weekend although technically I didn't do anything on my weekend. The only thing I did was Friday night bowling and I already talked about that. I handed out a few pictures to some friends today and did the usual routine. Jake Cihla informed me I'm obsessed with Zack because I talked about him for a few seconds. I tried to explain the whole fact that I only get to see Zack twice a week, maybe whereas he gets to see his gf every day. I asked him how he would feel if he only got to see Kayla twice a week and he said "UH! I'd rather not think about that!" and he just snubbed it off. So obviously he can't fathom how I feel about hardly getting to see Zack. Besides that and the fact that Jake and Kayla's parents consent to them going out whereas Zacks parents are getting there and mine are just evil.
I'm so mad because Vix posted another blog and I can't get to it from this pc and I'd log onto msn and ask her to link it to me but for some reason msn is being gay. I have tons of Alg 2 homework that I've been majorly slacking off on because Heeren only checks it when we take tests and today we had a quiz and for the most part I think I know what I was doing but if I'm lucky I'll get it back with a passing D. *sigh* I'm just not good at school. I'm even somewhat struggling in band and the last time that happened was when I got my solo clarinet piece for Solo Ensemble and that's because it was a class A, which is the hardest and I ended up getting a *1st and going to state and getting a perfect there as well.
I've been pretty distracted lately and earlier I actually went for a half hour jog with Shadow and I tired her out pretty bad, I hope she won't be limping when she wakes up. Shadow's going to be 9 this Christmas, or around there so she's getting pretty old and besides that when she was about 2 she got ran over by a truck and it crushed her skull, ribs, and tore open one of her organs. She still has the scar on her forehead and a huge lump on the side of her vertebrae by her back leg. She's done pretty well since then but now whenever she runs for a while she limps about favoring her front left leg. I love Shadow and I feel bad that she's in pain.
I don't know what else to write about except to say I hope Zack e-mails me because I love reading his e-mails. I actually made him his own folder in my account and there are 51 e-mails from one month of us writing back and forth. We've talked a couple of times on the phone but we aren't really phone people, that I know of. I'm thinking we just need to warm up to each other more and just be able to talk and I'm trying. Ang, Zack's sister has a home volleyball game this Thursday and I'm really hoping Vix can take me because she's taken me every other time. Thanks again Vix, because you are the primary reason I even get to see Zack. I love Vix and she's ok with just hanging out with Zack and me. Last time Kate came and then she actually had someone to hang out with but for some reason I liked it better when it was just Vix, Zack, and me.
Lately Kate and I have been more ornery towards each other and open to taking out our frustrations on each other. Today at lunch in the auditorium I actually made her cry in front of Nick and Vix and they both left because they were uncomfortable I'm sure. Kate hinted to our mom that I kissed Zack and possibly more, which was a lie (the possibly more part) and so I told mom that Kate had Josh over without permission. So Kate got yelled at and nothing worse but now she's all pissed at me when she made our parents even more weary about Zack. My chances of my parents actually allowing me to go out with Zack were slim in the first place and now they're even lower. I'm really going to have to suck up to them. I printed off one of Zacks e-mails and showed my parents last night how sweet Zack is and after my dad read it he laughed and said "Poor bastard" and my mom just kind of shrugged it off and I asked her what she thought because that was the reason I made her read it and all she said was "What do you want me to think? It was nice". I'm just trying to tell myself it could've been worse.
Next year Zack's going to be a Freshman and I'm going to be a Senior and those relationships have happened a lot. I was close to having one previously but I was a Sophomore and he was a Senior. I can name off at least 2 handfuls of couples I personally know who've had Senior/Freshman relationships so what's so wrong with Junior/8th grader? *sigh* I should just give up but I can't because I like Zack so much and he even wrote that if I don't like him not to waste my time on him and I'm just hoping he didn't mean that as in not for him to waste his time on me. Just because there's a 3 year difference doesn't mean it can't work out. He's very mature for his age, emotionally and physically and I'm sure I've probably said that before but it's true and I don't see anything wrong with it. My parents don't even seem to be open to the possibility. Well I'm not sure what else I can possibly write without complaining anymore about the situation so I'm going to go and Zack, start your blogger so I can read it. Hehe.
Mandy ~ 8:48 PM