~The Music of My Life~

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

In the Spotlight

I just got home about 45 minutes ago from play practice. I guess since today I'm on tech working the spotlight, which is a lot of fun. I don't have a lot of time to write because my brother just got home and when he wants the pc he gets it.

So today I didn't see Zach immediately after 1st hour, which mad me kind of angry because we always walk down the hall hand in hand to homeroom and I enjoy every second too much to sacrifice any time. Then I saw him after homeroom and he told me he couldn't find me and I just felt so much better seeing him. He made a blogger and he wrote the sweetest things about me and right now on msn he's writing me more sweet things. Here, I'll copy some of our convo and then I have to go.

~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
idk, i just gravitate to you, i don't even feel like i can get close enough to you
The Zach says:
o
The Zach says:
i never want to let go
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
hehe, me either and i can't really explain it any better than what i have
The Zach says:
its is unexplainable
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
it's like a challenge to me to explain it
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
and it isn't going to happen
The Zach says:
lol
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
but i want to explain the unexplainable
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
*pouts*
The Zach says:
lol
The Zach says:
u make me so happy
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
hehe
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
even when i'm sad?
The Zach says:
yeah

~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
being able to comfort you would make me so unbelievably happy
The Zach says:
i love being able to make u smile
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
like if we were together and you were crying or sick or anything and i could just be there to hold you, be with you
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
:)
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
i don't even have to try to make you smile, you automatically do
The Zach says:
yeah
The Zach says:
thats true
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
*sigh*
The Zach says:
i really like when im just looking into your eyes and u are looking into mine
The Zach says:
i just gives me a great feeling
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
hehe

The Zach says:
i want to hold u right now
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
mmm, don't say that *whines* it makes me realize what i'm missing when i'm not with you
The Zach says:
yeah
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
*holds arms out* can't... reach
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
go... to... the... down... stairs... base... ment... door!
The Zach says:
u have already reached me u dont need your arms
The Zach says:
lol
The Zach says:
ha ha ha ha ha ha
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
no, i'm selfish
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
i want you now
The Zach says:
u have me
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
not physically *pouts*
~Mandy~ Spotlight is Fun! says:
i said i'm selfish
The Zach says:
lol

*sigh* He makes me so happy and right and I just gravitate toward him. That's all we can establish of this feeling. I always feel that I can't get close enough to him even when I'm hugging him and his hugs are the best I've ever gotten. They're so genuine...

The Mandy says:
i just wanted to tell you something, you give the BEST hugs
The Zach says:
were are pretty much the same except i dont make out in school every day
The Zach says:
yet
The Zach says:
really why do u say that
The Mandy says:
yea, hehe
The Mandy says:
you just do, you hug me and i just... ahhh, zach
The Mandy says:
hehe
The Zach says:
lol
The Mandy says:
i'm serious
The Zach says:
i dont want to let go
The Mandy says:
that must be why
The Mandy says:
we just attach and we're like 'separate people? huh?'
The Mandy says:
we're one person, what you talkin bout?
The Zach says:
lol
The Mandy says:
hehe

So that's all she wrote tonight...

Mandy ~ 11:03 PM