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Monday, December 15, 2003
White Space Made My Own
Staring ahead
At the white
Thinking of...
Which words to write
Many thoughts
Inside my head
Fewer words
To be said
Secretly
Protecting
Magically
Deflecting
Tragedies waiting
Ready to fight
In the end
We'll reunite
One last moment
To remember the past
All of the memories
Vast visions now cast
This is a poem that I just wrote about five minutes ago after reading my sister's blogger. I'll copy what she mentioned about me...
amanda is talking to me and im ignoring her. im a great sister arent i?
Amanda, what else could i say to you Nanners? u are sleeping right now and look so peaceful. i will always watch over u no matter what. even if im younger hehe. yay to our magickal powers and name that sound like food. tiptoeing through woods and collecting acorns or picking dandelions and dancing in our field were always my favorite. as i hope they were yours.
sorry i ran out of time lol, but those who i love will know it. im in a weird sleepy mood right now. no people i am not suicidal lol. but i just wanted everybody to know because u never know when things are taken away from ya. and i wanted everybody to know i appreciate u dearly and am very fond even if i dotn always show it. now i better hightail it up stairs so i can hit the hay. and wake my dearie up. she fell asleep in sarahs bed. i love u very much amanda. more than i could ever love a boy. we just get preoccupied, right? yeah. but if i think too much now im going to get even more emotional (if its possible :) i really dont want to wake her up.... well better now than when sarah comes home.
I was so touched by those words and I thought it was a great idea to acknowledge everyone she loves like that to let them know. Seriously for the longest time lately I thought she was mad at me because she's been ignoring me.
So yesterday I went shopping for my secret santa for treble choir and for Jenn because she got me a present. I truely hope Heather isn't mad because her and her sister don't get along as well as say Kate and me do. I also think Heather might be a little jealous if I start being friends with her sister. I was a little jealous when Kate started being friends with my friends but then I got over it because I love her ;) So today I'm going to the doctors at quarter to 2 because I'm sick. My chest hurts, I have a runny/stuffy nose, phleme, and just all around cold sickness. My mom thinks I might have pneumonia because of my chest.
Ok so back to the acknowledging people...
Tatters, I love you very much and I will always remember everything we did since the time we frolicked in the meadow picking dandelions to running through the forest picking up acorns up until now. I will always think (and know) we have something special that no one else can have and everyone is jealous of us for it. ;) The relationship I have of you is one of the very few things I'm truely proud of and cherish. No matter how much you may ignore me or at times be frustrated with me I know we can always count on each other.
Vixy, I love you and even though we've only been really good friends for a short time it's definitely time I will always remember. I hope we'll continue to be friends and that you know no matter how our friendship may turn I will always love you even if I pretend to be mad at you sometimes ;)
Susie, I love you as well and you're one of the most amazing people. No matter how many obstacles life throws at you you almost always remain positive and use them as well as you can to your benefit. Your capacity for love astonishes me and I don't think I'll ever meet another person who cherishes life and the people in it as much as you do. If I believed in god I'd definitely have to say you'd be his daughter :P
Emily, No matter how much you say you're a bitch I can remember many more times when I've been in a horrible mood and who was there at least trying to cheer me up? In all the time I've known you I've never once thought you were anything besides a loving friend. Even if you convert to German and never talk another word of English as long as you live you will know I still love you although I highly discourage that idea.
Chris, You are amazing. No matter what you always somehow manage to make me laugh. I really miss seeing you in math and band. No matter how much you may ignore me and the world at times I know you only mean good. You're one of the best clarinet players and I can't wait until the day when we will get to play together in the same band again.
Katie, first of all we really have to start that rock band with Kaitlin, Jasmine, and Mike. You're one of the funniest people I know. I also know no matter what we'll always have each others backs even if either of us screw each others bfs, hehe. You have the best fashion sense of anyone I know and I hope we can always be there for each other.
Jasmine, I don't think anyone will truely know how good of friends we are. No, I'm not talking about the lesbian thing because we seriously aren't lesbians and I highly doubt we'll ever be. You are so gorgeous and you sympathize the best of anyone I know. I hope your surgery goes very well on Jan 8th and they fix you up perfect because you really deserve the best.
Jason, you're one of the smartest, nicest, and cutest people I know. Even though I met you through Sarah I feel as though we've become pretty good friends. Whenever I've needed to talk you always wanted to listen and I hope I've been there for you as much as you have for me. You feel like a second brother to me and treat me better than my real brother. You treat me as an equal even though you're six years older than me. How you can put up with Sarah and Ben will always be a mystery to me. I love you.
Mike, I don't know how you manage to deal. I'm jealous of you more than you know or might ever know. I think the curse has destined us to be friends. I love your poems and they'll always make me think. You'd better become a famous musician so I can tell everyone that we were once friends, jk! You'd better become a musician because it's what you love to do and somehow I know my future won't involve the music I love so much and work so hard at this moment. You have overcome so many things this far and don't let anything stop you in the future because you know you can beat it.
Matt, I know you don't read this and you probably never will but I feel as though there's something that needs to be written because it'll be the day when I can actually say this to your face. Over 15 months ago I fell in love with you and you were my first love. Since then I have never liked a guy anywhere near as much as you and I don't know if I ever will. I know for sure I will never love a guy the way I loved you and it is hard to let go. For some reason I was hoping somehow I wouldn't have to let you go...
Anthony, you're such a nice and funny friend. Any girl you may go out with better deserve you because I know you'll deserve them. I know we haven't been the best of friends and maybe that may be because you date my friends and not me :P jk. It seems as though we've been becoming better friends as time continues and I hope this is true.
I'm sorry if I forgot anyone but I must go now to get ready for my doctors appointment.
Staring ahead
At the white
Thinking of...
Which words to write
Many thoughts
Inside my head
Fewer words
To be said
Secretly
Protecting
Magically
Deflecting
Tragedies waiting
Ready to fight
In the end
We'll reunite
One last moment
To remember the past
All of the memories
Vast visions now cast
This is a poem that I just wrote about five minutes ago after reading my sister's blogger. I'll copy what she mentioned about me...
amanda is talking to me and im ignoring her. im a great sister arent i?
Amanda, what else could i say to you Nanners? u are sleeping right now and look so peaceful. i will always watch over u no matter what. even if im younger hehe. yay to our magickal powers and name that sound like food. tiptoeing through woods and collecting acorns or picking dandelions and dancing in our field were always my favorite. as i hope they were yours.
sorry i ran out of time lol, but those who i love will know it. im in a weird sleepy mood right now. no people i am not suicidal lol. but i just wanted everybody to know because u never know when things are taken away from ya. and i wanted everybody to know i appreciate u dearly and am very fond even if i dotn always show it. now i better hightail it up stairs so i can hit the hay. and wake my dearie up. she fell asleep in sarahs bed. i love u very much amanda. more than i could ever love a boy. we just get preoccupied, right? yeah. but if i think too much now im going to get even more emotional (if its possible :) i really dont want to wake her up.... well better now than when sarah comes home.
I was so touched by those words and I thought it was a great idea to acknowledge everyone she loves like that to let them know. Seriously for the longest time lately I thought she was mad at me because she's been ignoring me.
So yesterday I went shopping for my secret santa for treble choir and for Jenn because she got me a present. I truely hope Heather isn't mad because her and her sister don't get along as well as say Kate and me do. I also think Heather might be a little jealous if I start being friends with her sister. I was a little jealous when Kate started being friends with my friends but then I got over it because I love her ;) So today I'm going to the doctors at quarter to 2 because I'm sick. My chest hurts, I have a runny/stuffy nose, phleme, and just all around cold sickness. My mom thinks I might have pneumonia because of my chest.
Ok so back to the acknowledging people...
Tatters, I love you very much and I will always remember everything we did since the time we frolicked in the meadow picking dandelions to running through the forest picking up acorns up until now. I will always think (and know) we have something special that no one else can have and everyone is jealous of us for it. ;) The relationship I have of you is one of the very few things I'm truely proud of and cherish. No matter how much you may ignore me or at times be frustrated with me I know we can always count on each other.
Vixy, I love you and even though we've only been really good friends for a short time it's definitely time I will always remember. I hope we'll continue to be friends and that you know no matter how our friendship may turn I will always love you even if I pretend to be mad at you sometimes ;)
Susie, I love you as well and you're one of the most amazing people. No matter how many obstacles life throws at you you almost always remain positive and use them as well as you can to your benefit. Your capacity for love astonishes me and I don't think I'll ever meet another person who cherishes life and the people in it as much as you do. If I believed in god I'd definitely have to say you'd be his daughter :P
Emily, No matter how much you say you're a bitch I can remember many more times when I've been in a horrible mood and who was there at least trying to cheer me up? In all the time I've known you I've never once thought you were anything besides a loving friend. Even if you convert to German and never talk another word of English as long as you live you will know I still love you although I highly discourage that idea.
Chris, You are amazing. No matter what you always somehow manage to make me laugh. I really miss seeing you in math and band. No matter how much you may ignore me and the world at times I know you only mean good. You're one of the best clarinet players and I can't wait until the day when we will get to play together in the same band again.
Katie, first of all we really have to start that rock band with Kaitlin, Jasmine, and Mike. You're one of the funniest people I know. I also know no matter what we'll always have each others backs even if either of us screw each others bfs, hehe. You have the best fashion sense of anyone I know and I hope we can always be there for each other.
Jasmine, I don't think anyone will truely know how good of friends we are. No, I'm not talking about the lesbian thing because we seriously aren't lesbians and I highly doubt we'll ever be. You are so gorgeous and you sympathize the best of anyone I know. I hope your surgery goes very well on Jan 8th and they fix you up perfect because you really deserve the best.
Jason, you're one of the smartest, nicest, and cutest people I know. Even though I met you through Sarah I feel as though we've become pretty good friends. Whenever I've needed to talk you always wanted to listen and I hope I've been there for you as much as you have for me. You feel like a second brother to me and treat me better than my real brother. You treat me as an equal even though you're six years older than me. How you can put up with Sarah and Ben will always be a mystery to me. I love you.
Mike, I don't know how you manage to deal. I'm jealous of you more than you know or might ever know. I think the curse has destined us to be friends. I love your poems and they'll always make me think. You'd better become a famous musician so I can tell everyone that we were once friends, jk! You'd better become a musician because it's what you love to do and somehow I know my future won't involve the music I love so much and work so hard at this moment. You have overcome so many things this far and don't let anything stop you in the future because you know you can beat it.
Matt, I know you don't read this and you probably never will but I feel as though there's something that needs to be written because it'll be the day when I can actually say this to your face. Over 15 months ago I fell in love with you and you were my first love. Since then I have never liked a guy anywhere near as much as you and I don't know if I ever will. I know for sure I will never love a guy the way I loved you and it is hard to let go. For some reason I was hoping somehow I wouldn't have to let you go...
Anthony, you're such a nice and funny friend. Any girl you may go out with better deserve you because I know you'll deserve them. I know we haven't been the best of friends and maybe that may be because you date my friends and not me :P jk. It seems as though we've been becoming better friends as time continues and I hope this is true.
I'm sorry if I forgot anyone but I must go now to get ready for my doctors appointment.
Mandy ~ 11:05 AM