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Monday, January 12, 2004
Breathe In, Breath OUT!
Ok, a lot is going on with the people around me and very little has been setting me off lately so what does that mean? It means I've been hiding a ton of frusteration. A friend wrote something in their blogger that's a complete lie and it pissed me off because I consider a blogger to be a diary. If anything you're true to a blogger. Every little thing seems to just crumble down into something bigger. FINALLY, the issue of Solo Ensomble practice was addressed in band today, some lovely person mentioned it in the band council meeting, and I bet Mr. Zunker was just astounded that anyone was having problems with it. Although when we talked about it for about 40 minutes today 1st hour we brought up many well put arguments and needless to say we got the rest of the hour to work on Solo Ensomble. Ok, on to the singles...
Emily- I'm so happy to know someone agrees with me on the whole Kate/Mike thing. They make me feel so uncomfortable and to tell you the truth everytime I tell her she comes back with 'Remember when Matt, you, and me were in our room and you felt him up?' and I'm like 'Sorry, but that definitely doesn't compare to making out and endless feeling each other up'. Besides that the thing with Matt was once and not to mention almost two years ago as opposed to 2 months of this constantly and much worse. Kate also told me you snapped at her earlier today at lunch or something... I'm definitely not mad at you because I was seriously waiting for someone to snap and I had a feeling it was going to be someone before me. Although there's been a few occasions when I let them know I'm annoyed and they still continue and blame it on their 'mojo'.
Chris- ...you wrote about reverting back to your old self and I agree with you. It's too difficult to be constantly trying to please one person. It's like the only way you can be happy is if a very pretty girl is flirting with you, sorry but that seems to be one of your top priorities lately. Ever stop to think 'if relationships are so great and Amanda can supposedly get any guy she wants why isn't she in a relationship?' *sigh* If only people could read my mind...
Ha, if people could read my mind I definitely wouldn't be writing this right now.
Jasmine- I'm happy you got through surgery and you're doing ok. I'm waiting for the day when I'll see you in school again! I hope you're resting and feeling a lot better by tomorrow so you come to school cause I miss you and I'm sounding like a broken record here...
Heather- Trapped eh? I don't know what to tell you because I feel trapped all the time because all I do is go between school and home. The last time I got out was for a week down in Florida and even that had to end. I can only hope you do either one of two suggestions I can think of at the moment... find a way to escape even if it's just like being able to drive or spending what little time you're allowed to with Susie and really enjoying it and remembering it's your time. The other route I have taken because I really can't leave this place so I just give in to it and try to live with it. Sometimes I convince myself it's better because at least my house is cozy and I have quite a few luxeries like a tv, computer, and a ps2 although I never play on it.
SO that's my bit for the day oh and I'm happy to report that Sarah and Ben are coming home in two days although I won't be able to go to the airport to pick them up with mom because they're arriving at around 9:30 pm so they'll be home about quarter after 10, if all goes as planned. So now I'm out, I'll probably do a few pages of extra credit writing for Sociology and then read some Silver Wolf, take a shower and go to sleep.
Ok, a lot is going on with the people around me and very little has been setting me off lately so what does that mean? It means I've been hiding a ton of frusteration. A friend wrote something in their blogger that's a complete lie and it pissed me off because I consider a blogger to be a diary. If anything you're true to a blogger. Every little thing seems to just crumble down into something bigger. FINALLY, the issue of Solo Ensomble practice was addressed in band today, some lovely person mentioned it in the band council meeting, and I bet Mr. Zunker was just astounded that anyone was having problems with it. Although when we talked about it for about 40 minutes today 1st hour we brought up many well put arguments and needless to say we got the rest of the hour to work on Solo Ensomble. Ok, on to the singles...
Emily- I'm so happy to know someone agrees with me on the whole Kate/Mike thing. They make me feel so uncomfortable and to tell you the truth everytime I tell her she comes back with 'Remember when Matt, you, and me were in our room and you felt him up?' and I'm like 'Sorry, but that definitely doesn't compare to making out and endless feeling each other up'. Besides that the thing with Matt was once and not to mention almost two years ago as opposed to 2 months of this constantly and much worse. Kate also told me you snapped at her earlier today at lunch or something... I'm definitely not mad at you because I was seriously waiting for someone to snap and I had a feeling it was going to be someone before me. Although there's been a few occasions when I let them know I'm annoyed and they still continue and blame it on their 'mojo'.
Chris- ...you wrote about reverting back to your old self and I agree with you. It's too difficult to be constantly trying to please one person. It's like the only way you can be happy is if a very pretty girl is flirting with you, sorry but that seems to be one of your top priorities lately. Ever stop to think 'if relationships are so great and Amanda can supposedly get any guy she wants why isn't she in a relationship?' *sigh* If only people could read my mind...
Ha, if people could read my mind I definitely wouldn't be writing this right now.
Jasmine- I'm happy you got through surgery and you're doing ok. I'm waiting for the day when I'll see you in school again! I hope you're resting and feeling a lot better by tomorrow so you come to school cause I miss you and I'm sounding like a broken record here...
Heather- Trapped eh? I don't know what to tell you because I feel trapped all the time because all I do is go between school and home. The last time I got out was for a week down in Florida and even that had to end. I can only hope you do either one of two suggestions I can think of at the moment... find a way to escape even if it's just like being able to drive or spending what little time you're allowed to with Susie and really enjoying it and remembering it's your time. The other route I have taken because I really can't leave this place so I just give in to it and try to live with it. Sometimes I convince myself it's better because at least my house is cozy and I have quite a few luxeries like a tv, computer, and a ps2 although I never play on it.
SO that's my bit for the day oh and I'm happy to report that Sarah and Ben are coming home in two days although I won't be able to go to the airport to pick them up with mom because they're arriving at around 9:30 pm so they'll be home about quarter after 10, if all goes as planned. So now I'm out, I'll probably do a few pages of extra credit writing for Sociology and then read some Silver Wolf, take a shower and go to sleep.
Mandy ~ 5:57 PM