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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
Butterflies
For some reason I'm very anxious and I have no clue as to why. My stomach turned even more after I read my daily horoscope...
Everything is ready, and still you hesitate. Past failures and future successes
lean on you, building up the pressure. This would be so simple if you let it.
Remember who you are and why you made this decision.
I think it means that Job wants to give me a chance but because of my past failures with guys I'm letting that effect what could possibly happen with him. *SIGH* I laughed at myself today in aerobics because we took our resting heart rates and mine was 100 beats/minute and I just took it again and got the same exact thing. My target resting range is supposed to be around 70 beats/minute. So there's something up with my heart that's making it beat really fast and it's kind of making me wonder although I'm pretty sure nothing's wrong. Usually when someone's heartbeat is so increased like mine it's because they smoke (I don't), they're excited, or they just have a lot of stress and I can go for the last two so that has to be it.
So grammar isn't that bad of a class because I thought Santy was dead serious when he said we weren't going to have any fun. Today he was joking around all hour so that lessened the tension although I have a big packet to do. There's something that's making me really antsy and I can't shake it. I saw the itenerary for the Chicago trip and we got 2 pieces of irish marching music that are 2 pages each so that may also be a factor that I'm going to be in the St. Patrick's Day parade which is televised. Solo Ensemble is in a couple of weeks and yesterday was the first day I practiced my duet with Kayla and we only got to around the 3rd page of 7 pages. I'm so glad we're singing it in english instead of german because I was really nervous about that. So I'm going to go because I think I'm crashing Sarah's pc.
Later...
Ok, I just left Sarah's pc run for a minute and it was all better. So I'll pick up where I left it last time...
Snoball was a lot of fun. First Kate and I went and got our hair done at Hair Design and then we had Jasmine and Kelly over and we (Jasmine, Kelly, Kate, and me) all got ready and my mum did Jasmine's hair and it was really pretty. Then we all got dressed after hair and makeup and Mike and his parents and Job and his mom came over to take pictures. So it was chaos with about 11 people running about upstairs. In the midst of all the confusion Job looked at me after someone mentioned tickets and asked for his and I'd only boughten a single one so then there was the whole problem of Job not having a ticket. Then my mom with her amazing connections called in and got a ticket for $10 and I'm sure Job never paid her back.
We took a bunch of pictures and I hope at least some of them turn out because I'm not photogenic. Then my dad took Job and me to the Fireside and I met everyone and only one person didn't show up, Andy Polzin but we met him later at the dance and he gave some excuse or another. So we all ate and then when Jasmine, Kelly, Mike, and Kate were leaving Job and I were done so we got up paid and we all left. Job and I got to the dance about half hour before everyone else besides Ashley, Susie, Heather, and Ryan who got there about 5 minutes after us and yet they left before us. So then I just went and danced and spent a good portion of the night trying to teach Job how to dance although I had no clue for a guy because I only know girl moves so then Sam Pierre helped a bit. I also took the extra care to remember to use my camera because I always have this problem where I take a camera and get so caught up in all the fun that I forget to use it and then somehow I misplaced the damn camera which only had another 1 or 2 pictures left to take. I still haven't found it and have gotten no word on it and it's been three days so...
Now I'm going to finish this because I feel as though I can't really trust anyone. I think the only people I can really trust anymore are Kate, Mike, Jasmine, and Povish. I've heard a lot of things about what people have been saying about me behind my back so I'm just getting really annoyed right... Well I guess I was ignorant in thinking I could trust my bandies because everyone and anyone can be unloyal. Have a fun night!
For some reason I'm very anxious and I have no clue as to why. My stomach turned even more after I read my daily horoscope...
Everything is ready, and still you hesitate. Past failures and future successes
lean on you, building up the pressure. This would be so simple if you let it.
Remember who you are and why you made this decision.
I think it means that Job wants to give me a chance but because of my past failures with guys I'm letting that effect what could possibly happen with him. *SIGH* I laughed at myself today in aerobics because we took our resting heart rates and mine was 100 beats/minute and I just took it again and got the same exact thing. My target resting range is supposed to be around 70 beats/minute. So there's something up with my heart that's making it beat really fast and it's kind of making me wonder although I'm pretty sure nothing's wrong. Usually when someone's heartbeat is so increased like mine it's because they smoke (I don't), they're excited, or they just have a lot of stress and I can go for the last two so that has to be it.
So grammar isn't that bad of a class because I thought Santy was dead serious when he said we weren't going to have any fun. Today he was joking around all hour so that lessened the tension although I have a big packet to do. There's something that's making me really antsy and I can't shake it. I saw the itenerary for the Chicago trip and we got 2 pieces of irish marching music that are 2 pages each so that may also be a factor that I'm going to be in the St. Patrick's Day parade which is televised. Solo Ensemble is in a couple of weeks and yesterday was the first day I practiced my duet with Kayla and we only got to around the 3rd page of 7 pages. I'm so glad we're singing it in english instead of german because I was really nervous about that. So I'm going to go because I think I'm crashing Sarah's pc.
Later...
Ok, I just left Sarah's pc run for a minute and it was all better. So I'll pick up where I left it last time...
Snoball was a lot of fun. First Kate and I went and got our hair done at Hair Design and then we had Jasmine and Kelly over and we (Jasmine, Kelly, Kate, and me) all got ready and my mum did Jasmine's hair and it was really pretty. Then we all got dressed after hair and makeup and Mike and his parents and Job and his mom came over to take pictures. So it was chaos with about 11 people running about upstairs. In the midst of all the confusion Job looked at me after someone mentioned tickets and asked for his and I'd only boughten a single one so then there was the whole problem of Job not having a ticket. Then my mom with her amazing connections called in and got a ticket for $10 and I'm sure Job never paid her back.
We took a bunch of pictures and I hope at least some of them turn out because I'm not photogenic. Then my dad took Job and me to the Fireside and I met everyone and only one person didn't show up, Andy Polzin but we met him later at the dance and he gave some excuse or another. So we all ate and then when Jasmine, Kelly, Mike, and Kate were leaving Job and I were done so we got up paid and we all left. Job and I got to the dance about half hour before everyone else besides Ashley, Susie, Heather, and Ryan who got there about 5 minutes after us and yet they left before us. So then I just went and danced and spent a good portion of the night trying to teach Job how to dance although I had no clue for a guy because I only know girl moves so then Sam Pierre helped a bit. I also took the extra care to remember to use my camera because I always have this problem where I take a camera and get so caught up in all the fun that I forget to use it and then somehow I misplaced the damn camera which only had another 1 or 2 pictures left to take. I still haven't found it and have gotten no word on it and it's been three days so...
Now I'm going to finish this because I feel as though I can't really trust anyone. I think the only people I can really trust anymore are Kate, Mike, Jasmine, and Povish. I've heard a lot of things about what people have been saying about me behind my back so I'm just getting really annoyed right... Well I guess I was ignorant in thinking I could trust my bandies because everyone and anyone can be unloyal. Have a fun night!
Mandy ~ 7:59 PM