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Monday, January 05, 2004
The Low-Down
Ok, so here's what I do. I open a webpage, go to Kate's, Mike's, Emily's, Chris's, Jasmine's, Anthony's, and Heather's bloggers one after the other and read for updates and then if I find something new and opinion generating I write about it in here. Then I write about my day so I think from now on everyone will have their own section and then I'll have a big one about everything and no matter what everyone will be entitled to the whole blog. I'll start with my day because I'm sure the prospect of this new idea has generated (obviously I like that word today) some excitement.
So today was my first day back at school and it just seemed so... I can't quite explain it but for some reason I've always had an image of myself. As of recently I just really realized no one's really looking at me and I can just go to school, do my thing, have the fun I can, and leave. Something seemed really different today but I couldn't quite pick it out. School just seemed different and it may have been this newfound realization that everyone is just selfish and it doesn't matter how I really look or act because unless I do something drastic the chances of me being remembered because of what I do are very low.
I am quite the plain jane and another thing. I feel horrible because this guy in my Sociology class has been hitting on me for quite some time and I feel absolutely horrible about it but it's like he tries hitting on me, he sets himself up to be shot down. Everytime he talks to me I act like a complete bitch to him, I don't look him in the face, I don't really say anything, and speak in this horribly bitchy tone. For once I think I'll throw him off by being nice to him but if he pushes it I'll let him know. In a nice way unlike what I've resorted to since I meet him in 7th grade.
Ok, now unto the blogger picks.
Kate and Mike- I'm so glad you and Mike have found a place in each others hearts and in all truth I'm jealous more than you'll ever know. For a love you have found and I can only hope I may find the same some day. I've been searching and not but it seems to be as though I always get screwed over in one way or another. Please don't let it go without a fight. I may be jealous but that doesn't mean I can't let that affect my sisterly love for you, Kate and the friendship I've obtained with Mike and instead acknowledge the fact that you both deserve to have each other.
Emily- I've read your recent entry from a few days ago and I liked the new chapter you put up for your book in working progress. It seems as though everything's starting to slowing unwravel and in the process I'm left hanging by the string in which it has unwraveled and I'm waiting for Anna's response to Alex's ulitmadum.
Chris- You... there's so much that isn't said and yet I wonder at times what should be said. For one I'm so happy you've decided to be more social and open with who you are even if for the most part you're still a mystery. We need to go to Mr. Zunker and ask about a suitable duet for us. I haven't given you a straight answer because in all truth we haven't been talking to each other a lot.
Jasmine- I love you hunny! You just recently posted a blog about living next to Kelly when you grow up and I'm so happy you have dreams to succeed at.
Anthony- nothing was posted recently and I don't especially derive a lot about you when you use other bands lyrics to describe how you feel. I'm happy for you and Katie.
Heather- Oh, much to say...
We all die sometime. Even the person you're sure will never die is going to. Mothers, fathers, siblings, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives, friends, pets. EVERYONE WILL DIE. Its a fact of life. We are born we grow adn learn, reach our sexual peak and have kids and then begin to die. Death is not something to run from, but I believe that death should be used wisely. I know that I am going to die someday, but I want to use my death for a good cause. I'd rather die fighting for what I believe in, then on a bed too old to move. I dont want to get old, I'll die before then.
This is from the most recent entry you posted on the 4th. I've realized this quite some time ago because I've had to deal with quite a few deaths starting at a rather young age. The way you write of this concept, which is all too true makes it seem like some ordeal we just endure until it's over but life is much more than that and you really have to appreciate the people and things you have and love until they are gone because then you can have the memories and the love will last much longer than you realize. It'll always be there for you even upon your hardest times so please keep this in mind when you think of how bleak it all looks in perspective.
Ok, so here's what I do. I open a webpage, go to Kate's, Mike's, Emily's, Chris's, Jasmine's, Anthony's, and Heather's bloggers one after the other and read for updates and then if I find something new and opinion generating I write about it in here. Then I write about my day so I think from now on everyone will have their own section and then I'll have a big one about everything and no matter what everyone will be entitled to the whole blog. I'll start with my day because I'm sure the prospect of this new idea has generated (obviously I like that word today) some excitement.
So today was my first day back at school and it just seemed so... I can't quite explain it but for some reason I've always had an image of myself. As of recently I just really realized no one's really looking at me and I can just go to school, do my thing, have the fun I can, and leave. Something seemed really different today but I couldn't quite pick it out. School just seemed different and it may have been this newfound realization that everyone is just selfish and it doesn't matter how I really look or act because unless I do something drastic the chances of me being remembered because of what I do are very low.
I am quite the plain jane and another thing. I feel horrible because this guy in my Sociology class has been hitting on me for quite some time and I feel absolutely horrible about it but it's like he tries hitting on me, he sets himself up to be shot down. Everytime he talks to me I act like a complete bitch to him, I don't look him in the face, I don't really say anything, and speak in this horribly bitchy tone. For once I think I'll throw him off by being nice to him but if he pushes it I'll let him know. In a nice way unlike what I've resorted to since I meet him in 7th grade.
Ok, now unto the blogger picks.
Kate and Mike- I'm so glad you and Mike have found a place in each others hearts and in all truth I'm jealous more than you'll ever know. For a love you have found and I can only hope I may find the same some day. I've been searching and not but it seems to be as though I always get screwed over in one way or another. Please don't let it go without a fight. I may be jealous but that doesn't mean I can't let that affect my sisterly love for you, Kate and the friendship I've obtained with Mike and instead acknowledge the fact that you both deserve to have each other.
Emily- I've read your recent entry from a few days ago and I liked the new chapter you put up for your book in working progress. It seems as though everything's starting to slowing unwravel and in the process I'm left hanging by the string in which it has unwraveled and I'm waiting for Anna's response to Alex's ulitmadum.
Chris- You... there's so much that isn't said and yet I wonder at times what should be said. For one I'm so happy you've decided to be more social and open with who you are even if for the most part you're still a mystery. We need to go to Mr. Zunker and ask about a suitable duet for us. I haven't given you a straight answer because in all truth we haven't been talking to each other a lot.
Jasmine- I love you hunny! You just recently posted a blog about living next to Kelly when you grow up and I'm so happy you have dreams to succeed at.
Anthony- nothing was posted recently and I don't especially derive a lot about you when you use other bands lyrics to describe how you feel. I'm happy for you and Katie.
Heather- Oh, much to say...
We all die sometime. Even the person you're sure will never die is going to. Mothers, fathers, siblings, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives, friends, pets. EVERYONE WILL DIE. Its a fact of life. We are born we grow adn learn, reach our sexual peak and have kids and then begin to die. Death is not something to run from, but I believe that death should be used wisely. I know that I am going to die someday, but I want to use my death for a good cause. I'd rather die fighting for what I believe in, then on a bed too old to move. I dont want to get old, I'll die before then.
This is from the most recent entry you posted on the 4th. I've realized this quite some time ago because I've had to deal with quite a few deaths starting at a rather young age. The way you write of this concept, which is all too true makes it seem like some ordeal we just endure until it's over but life is much more than that and you really have to appreciate the people and things you have and love until they are gone because then you can have the memories and the love will last much longer than you realize. It'll always be there for you even upon your hardest times so please keep this in mind when you think of how bleak it all looks in perspective.
Mandy ~ 6:10 PM