I forgot to copy this down from the conversation I had mere minutes ago with Emily but it was something I wanted to copy down because I've thought it many times and wanted to share it with my fellow bloggies (those who write in blogs, if it wasn't clear).
Emily says:
so I was reading old blog entries of mine....like my first blog entries...
Emily says:
wow
I Always Feel Like Something I May Do or Say Will Drive Him Away says:
yea, i know, it's a trip and a half
I Always Feel Like Something I May Do or Say Will Drive Him Away says:
it's crazy and i love being able to pick a time and just go back, sometimes it hurts but it's so nice to have that option, it's almost like i can travel back in time without having to actually relive the memories and have to relive, in some cases, the pain
Emily says:
yea, no lie.....my first entries were like...I don't know.....I talked about will a lot,e very other word, that was before he had the adress to it, and so many othe rpeople, so everything was like unedited, and yea, brought back lots of crazy memories though
I Always Feel Like Something I May Do or Say Will Drive Him Away says:
i know, it's like when it's just a diary it's just you
I Always Feel Like Something I May Do or Say Will Drive Him Away says:
and then the more you give it to the more your true feelings get 'edited'
Emily says:
yea I know
Emily says:
it's horrible.....
I really wished I could post every thought I truely had but some would offend readers of this blog and others would be a little explicit for any other readers and I'm not saying sexually explicit but thought provoking. I find myself watching a lot of what I type in here but I guess it's the price you pay when having a public blogger. Either edit how you truely feel or feel the wrath of those offended by your true thoughts and feelings.
ex. The time I wrote about going to church, result- Dan Povish wanted to rip me apart for mocking his religion although it was just my thoughts upon how I felt. Or when I write about Job others get annoyed because I'm obsessive or whatever.
In it's entirety it's pretty much a lose-lose situation. Kind of annoying but aren't a lot of realistic life obstacles and happenings. I know I worded it wrong and weird but for those who know me at least will know what I mean.