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Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Discombobulation
If that's even a word or if it's even spelled right. *shrugs* SO what is there to say? Many things are going on with all of my friends and I find it hard to keep up at times. It's almost like in the past couple of years we've grown so fast and all of our issues are becoming more important and detailed. I feel as though a lot of the time I've been neglecting my duty as a friend to quite a few people including the ones I love the most.
Heather said she had to choose between two guys and she chose one and I thought it was about her family and she said it had two meanings and I got them both so she just really confused me. I've been trying to figure out how I know and yet I don't know about this whole issue. Time will tell, hopefully.
Then today I had to figure my schedule for my senior year and I got Mr. Heideman and he was just retarded. He made me feel stupid by telling me I should stick to the easy classes and he didn't help me with any of my choices. Now if Mrs. Hanson were there she would've told me what everything was about and how the teachers are and how they teach and really guide me like a GUIDEnce counselor is supposed to do! So I think I'm just going to go to guidence during my study hall, if I can and talk to Mrs. Hanson because after the choices I made under Mr. Heideman's counseling I feel as though I may have picked a class that wasn't suited for me or challenged myself as I maybe should have seen as my drive to get good grades has substantially risen this year.
Last night I had my second sexual dream, that I can remember. I had it about a certain guy who's on the basketball team and whom I've had a couple of classes with but no relation otherwise. It confuses me how I have dreams about guys I don't know and really don't like besides the fact that I find them attractive. It was weird because (I won't get into details and scare people) the guy and me were sitting at the top of some stairs by a door and he was intimately telling me about how badly he wanted me and what he was going to do on prom night with me. Now the weird part was that I didn't get scared but excited and I played along with him and then after we talked we started making out. So later I was in some fabric store with tight isles and I was just browsing and everywhere I turned another person was whispering about the solicit whorish life I live when I'm a virgin. I was really unnerved and I wonder what this dream means symbolically.
A couple of days ago Job asked me to come to his meet tomorrow and today I asked Matt Paquette if he knew anything about it and he said it was an away meet at Stevens Pt. So then I got annoyed that Job would leave out such important details because all he said after I asked was it was at 7. Naturally I assumed it was a home meet because of course I can't drive and I can't go out of town on a school night. Then when I got home I realized from Kate's previous experience that Matt's a compulsive liar but I was so convinced he was telling the truth. My mom said it was ok if it was a home meet and I'm going to ask Job tomorrow.
Jasmine informed me about this huge ordeal that she just went through with a Dr. Goldson who wanted to buy her house and how he suffered from a major heart attack and his wife pulled the life support tonight because he went brain dead and I almost started crying. She wrote about it in her blogger and now I have a new theory that is easily disproved; nonetheless I will state it...
Anyone who lives in Rhinelander and leads a successful live or knows what they're going to do and will succeed in life leads a very short life. My examples are Jameson (his life was emotionally taken away by the physical taking away of his career and love), Lindsey, and Dr. Goldson.
*sigh* so much to say. If only it were effortless to recall happenings and record them for all to read but alas I'm lazy and the world is never ending. Wait, that made no sense... I'm lazy and some cheese smells bad? Absolutely no correlation because smelly cheese has never really crossed my path nor has it had some 'lazifying' effect upon me. OH OH, I got it...
I'm lazy and Mrs. Hanson is the only good and sane guidence counselor. Good night all.
If that's even a word or if it's even spelled right. *shrugs* SO what is there to say? Many things are going on with all of my friends and I find it hard to keep up at times. It's almost like in the past couple of years we've grown so fast and all of our issues are becoming more important and detailed. I feel as though a lot of the time I've been neglecting my duty as a friend to quite a few people including the ones I love the most.
Heather said she had to choose between two guys and she chose one and I thought it was about her family and she said it had two meanings and I got them both so she just really confused me. I've been trying to figure out how I know and yet I don't know about this whole issue. Time will tell, hopefully.
Then today I had to figure my schedule for my senior year and I got Mr. Heideman and he was just retarded. He made me feel stupid by telling me I should stick to the easy classes and he didn't help me with any of my choices. Now if Mrs. Hanson were there she would've told me what everything was about and how the teachers are and how they teach and really guide me like a GUIDEnce counselor is supposed to do! So I think I'm just going to go to guidence during my study hall, if I can and talk to Mrs. Hanson because after the choices I made under Mr. Heideman's counseling I feel as though I may have picked a class that wasn't suited for me or challenged myself as I maybe should have seen as my drive to get good grades has substantially risen this year.
Last night I had my second sexual dream, that I can remember. I had it about a certain guy who's on the basketball team and whom I've had a couple of classes with but no relation otherwise. It confuses me how I have dreams about guys I don't know and really don't like besides the fact that I find them attractive. It was weird because (I won't get into details and scare people) the guy and me were sitting at the top of some stairs by a door and he was intimately telling me about how badly he wanted me and what he was going to do on prom night with me. Now the weird part was that I didn't get scared but excited and I played along with him and then after we talked we started making out. So later I was in some fabric store with tight isles and I was just browsing and everywhere I turned another person was whispering about the solicit whorish life I live when I'm a virgin. I was really unnerved and I wonder what this dream means symbolically.
A couple of days ago Job asked me to come to his meet tomorrow and today I asked Matt Paquette if he knew anything about it and he said it was an away meet at Stevens Pt. So then I got annoyed that Job would leave out such important details because all he said after I asked was it was at 7. Naturally I assumed it was a home meet because of course I can't drive and I can't go out of town on a school night. Then when I got home I realized from Kate's previous experience that Matt's a compulsive liar but I was so convinced he was telling the truth. My mom said it was ok if it was a home meet and I'm going to ask Job tomorrow.
Jasmine informed me about this huge ordeal that she just went through with a Dr. Goldson who wanted to buy her house and how he suffered from a major heart attack and his wife pulled the life support tonight because he went brain dead and I almost started crying. She wrote about it in her blogger and now I have a new theory that is easily disproved; nonetheless I will state it...
Anyone who lives in Rhinelander and leads a successful live or knows what they're going to do and will succeed in life leads a very short life. My examples are Jameson (his life was emotionally taken away by the physical taking away of his career and love), Lindsey, and Dr. Goldson.
*sigh* so much to say. If only it were effortless to recall happenings and record them for all to read but alas I'm lazy and the world is never ending. Wait, that made no sense... I'm lazy and some cheese smells bad? Absolutely no correlation because smelly cheese has never really crossed my path nor has it had some 'lazifying' effect upon me. OH OH, I got it...
I'm lazy and Mrs. Hanson is the only good and sane guidence counselor. Good night all.
Mandy ~ 10:26 PM