~The Music of My Life~

Saturday, February 28, 2004

S and E

For those who haven't been reading my blog or who aren't bandies or chorus members my title stands for the musical event I attended today: Solo and Ensemble. It kicked ass. I had so much fun and I got to hang out with a bunch of different people. At first I was really nervous and then my duet with Kayla rolled around and it all melted away. I introduced our piece with charisma and even made the audience laugh. I said 'Hi, my name is Amanda Marquardt and this is Kayla Dotter. We're from Rhinelander Highschool and our accompianist is Mrs. Peterson. We're singing Autumn song by F. Mendlesshon, Felix, and an interesting aspect of our piece is how we harmonize until the end of the phrase where we gracefully come into unison.' I said the words so cutesy and really played them up and the whole room of people laughed. Then Kayla and myself sang the song and I can't remember if we even made a single mistake unless there was one wrong note, maybe. We interacted with the whole room and with each other and we really played up the music. After our judge almost went crazy by complimenting our interpratations alone.

After that I walked around and attended many other events in as little time possible and in between there I lost Job for a while but then we found each other and all was good, :p. I was disappointed with clarinet choir and we got a 1st so that was good enough. I got starred firsts on my duet and trio and I'm not sure about woodwind ensemble because the results weren't posted before we left. I got a 1st on my solo which was the best score I could get because it was only a B class. It was really funny when people remarked 'you only got a 1st?' and then I had to tell them it wasn't an A class piece. I was so calm and it was pretty unexplainable. I've never been that calm while attending S and E. I watched Job's events or at least the ones I could get to in between my five events. So the scores of mine were- solo-1st, duet-1*, trio- 1*, clarinet choir- 1st, and woodwind- unknown.

I think woodwind made it to state though because the judge only mentioned one thing and it was the dynamic marking for the first few measures. I had to laugh though because we played it pianissamo until Zunker told us we had to play out and then we did and Zunker said it was perfect so we played it that way and the judge told us to bring it down. So Zunker basically messed it up by telling us to play it wrong. He also messed up brass choir which pissed me off. I heard him apologize during the piece too and then the judge marked them down for Zunker's mistake! None of my family came to watch my events and that's ok I guess because Sarah, and mom are coming to state although they won't get to hear my solo which kind of sucks because I thought I did ok. Job insists I did great but I don't know. I just don't want to get my hopes up.

*takes a breath* Whew. I've been running since 5 am and on only a few hours of sleep so don't even ask how I'm doing it. I just want to get everything done and written out so I don't forget anything. I'm kind of peeved at Zunker for not caring as much as he should've about S and E. Jameson was much better about it than he was. Jameson always made sure we were more than ready because I knew he didn't want us going to embarass ourselves. I'm also peeved that I missed Emily's solo but it's going to state so I have to see it there. I got back to the site before her scheduled time but since someone before her cancelled she went early so both Kate and I missed it.

Ok, I have to say this. Job was so cute all day like he always is. He was so affectionate and playful with me. When I started getting nervous he kept reassuring me and I think that's why I was so calm when I did sing because I could hear him in my head telling me I was good and I would do good. He just reassures me so much... especially when we're cuddling. I've never felt safer in my life than when I'm in his arms. Then there are the people who say 'well what about Matt?' and when I think about it Matt was always a loose cannon and completely unpredictable and Job isn't quite predictable in that sense but he's not going to hurt me. It's almost like I don't like feeling so vounerable because him knowing how I feel gives him the advantage to crush me whenever he wants. Yet, I know because I can feel it that the last thing he wants to do is hurt me. He's always taking the extra precaution to make sure I'm comfortable with what we're doing even when it comes to just cuddling.

Haha, that brings me to the next topic... I saw Job's parents many times at S and E but I was afraid to talk to them without him around like I have no right to. I felt so embarassed feeling like that because more than anything I just want to get to know his whole family because they are a major part of his life and even though it's only been a short amount of time in which we've been going out I just want to be apart of that. I just felt like I was going to bother them because they looked so content just sitting together and 'oh, here comes Job's obnoxious slutty girlfriend'. I'm sure his mom doesn't want me to take him from her and I don't blame her because he's such a sweetie. I guess I just don't want to interfere. *sigh* Maybe later I can make a better impression upon his family or maybe they'll just reject me. *shrugs* Whatever happens happens. Well I'm off to talk online to Job or maybe play some games or maybe both.

Mandy ~ 8:18 PM