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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Watch on Your Wrist
Hmmm. Don't ask me about the title. As I've explained many times I may have a title the thing is they may not always make sense. So I'm extremely bored right now and loving it. After school I "lifted" with Job for about half hour. He lifted but I really didn't because I'm a wuss. I wouldn't do the squat because... ahhh stupid reasons but here goes. For some odd reason all of my joints from my waist down kill especially after exercise. It's probably because I usually only ever work out my lower half in aerobics because we're constantly moving.
The thing is they don't hurt unless say Josh Russle jumps on my back for a piggy back ride and almost snaps me in half because he only weighs about 35 lbs more than me... his 145 to my 110. I pulled a 'hold his weight for about 5 seconds before I realize it's breaking me and then my knees practically collapse and I go all the way down to the floor without falling'. That may just be the reason I can't really bend over anymore. I'm just suprised he didn't seriously hurt me because my ankle is already messed up and I have shin splints. Funny thing that I didn't remember that happening until 5 minutes ago probably because it happened in about 20 seconds. Saturday night I went bowling and we were all goofing off and I jokingly said I could pick Josh up and he's like 'no you couldn't' and then I agreed and about 15 minutes later he jumps on my back. Least to say I was severly confused.
Today Crystal drove us to Spine and Sport and she pumped the Mario Brothers' theme song and it was great. Then after we went there for aerobics she drove us to Burger King with the rest of the class (besides Jen and Jenny who decided to take it upon themselves to go to DQ because they weren't listening when Federle said BK) and we ate there really quick and I bought Kate cini-minis with my left over money and I would've bought her a croissan-wich too but just before I left she hit me up for some money for lunch because she forgot. So then Crystal and I arrived back at the RHS with two minutes to spare. It's so much fun to ride with someone my age because they're all crazy drivers.
The concert went really well last night aside from some 7th grade chica puking in the bleachers but I didn't see it or anything so I was happy with that. Everything else went as planned and I didn't get too nervous but I've come to except my nerves because as Santy says it keeps me on edge. Unlike today after school when I went driving with my dad. I was so relaxed I forgot to adjust my mirrors, and my seat so I was driving with my legs completely extended and I couldn't see anything behind me. I fixed the mirror within 2 minutes of driving but I didn't realize the seat was so far back for at least 10 minutes and then on the hwy going about 55 I adjusted it as well as my blury contact. My dad wasn't too happy with me but I didn't go out of my lane or anything although I should've been more aware as soon as I got in the car. I'm such a dip even though Crystal drove worse than I did. She was going 50 in a school zone but it was ok since we didn't get pulled over although I'd never do that.
I'm dling '8th World Wonder' by Kimberely Locke on Sarah's pc and I hope she won't kill me because it's a really good song because it makes me think of Job. Today in band we were debating on which song we wanted to play for competition. We played through a song called 'The Last Battle' (I have 3rd part) and it was so inapropriately named because it was pure stealth so I decided to call it 'James Bondish'. Then Zunker asked us if we knew the history after we played it and Job said the war of 1812 and Zunker almost had an accident because he was so excited someone knew. Then Job's like uhh! I'm smart. It was so cute. Besides the fact the whole time he was kicking my butt through my chair (playfully) and I stole his shoe twice.
The other song we sight read I had 1st part on and it's called something like 'The Hobbit' or something and it's the 5th movement of a series and it's on loan to us from another band because it's like $150. Some other school in southern WI played that song and the other 4 movements. They started with the first movement and each year they did the next movement so after 5 years (one year for each of the 5 movements) they finished the series and put it all together on a cd and Zunker had the cd and after we played through it once he played the cd and he said 'Personally I think you guys can perform this piece a lot better'. I could hear every mistake they made and although I admit I couldn't play it nowhere near perfect the first time through I know I could easily get it down in a month. I absolutely loved our arrangement done by Holsinger called 'Suite in E Flat'. The three movements were so different but each showcased a different section and quality and they definitely challenged us which definitely wasn't a case with 'The Last Battle' and 'The Hobbit'. I know March Slav is a gorgeous piece and it challenges the hell out of me but Zunker informed us the 6 pages of it was too long.
I'm calling Job back in 90 minutes and I really don't have anything to do until then besides writing in here and I'm sure people would kill me if I wrote another 14 paragraph novel about the trials of my life which basically amounts to/translates to: CRAP. Hehe. Sorry to those who actually read this. Oh, I know what I'm going to do. I'll be right back so I can go find a poem I wrote a little while ago and post it on here. I haven't thought of a title yet but I just want to post it before I forget about it.
Kiss him
Go out on a whim
I think
Don't blink
Stare into his eyes
Take him by suprise
This infatuation
Pure elation
Hand in hand
At his command
Of my impression
One confession
Of my heart...
Only the start
Thinking too much
The want of his touch
Still dealing
With this feeling
Part of me unaware
Of how much he cares
Does he know?
Of what I show
So much I keep
To myself I weep
Soon I'll let him see
All there is of me
It's truely all over the place but I wrote it a few weeks ago. I remember feeling so supressed about my feelings and how there was this barrier for some reason that whenever I just wanted to kiss him I wouldn't let myself. I think it was because I felt our first kiss came too soon so I could regain the standard previous to that by not kissing him again for a while? I'm not quite sure myself but I just wanted to post the poem for my Job. Yes, he's mine and no one is taking him from me ever. I thought (although I didn't want to say anything to him) that when he said he couldn't stand seeing anyone else with their hands on me that it was really possessive but I thought about it and I couldn't stand seeing another girl being affectionate with him either. So I have to go now because Sarah has to do her homework so that gives me an hour to do nothing.
Hmmm. Don't ask me about the title. As I've explained many times I may have a title the thing is they may not always make sense. So I'm extremely bored right now and loving it. After school I "lifted" with Job for about half hour. He lifted but I really didn't because I'm a wuss. I wouldn't do the squat because... ahhh stupid reasons but here goes. For some odd reason all of my joints from my waist down kill especially after exercise. It's probably because I usually only ever work out my lower half in aerobics because we're constantly moving.
The thing is they don't hurt unless say Josh Russle jumps on my back for a piggy back ride and almost snaps me in half because he only weighs about 35 lbs more than me... his 145 to my 110. I pulled a 'hold his weight for about 5 seconds before I realize it's breaking me and then my knees practically collapse and I go all the way down to the floor without falling'. That may just be the reason I can't really bend over anymore. I'm just suprised he didn't seriously hurt me because my ankle is already messed up and I have shin splints. Funny thing that I didn't remember that happening until 5 minutes ago probably because it happened in about 20 seconds. Saturday night I went bowling and we were all goofing off and I jokingly said I could pick Josh up and he's like 'no you couldn't' and then I agreed and about 15 minutes later he jumps on my back. Least to say I was severly confused.
Today Crystal drove us to Spine and Sport and she pumped the Mario Brothers' theme song and it was great. Then after we went there for aerobics she drove us to Burger King with the rest of the class (besides Jen and Jenny who decided to take it upon themselves to go to DQ because they weren't listening when Federle said BK) and we ate there really quick and I bought Kate cini-minis with my left over money and I would've bought her a croissan-wich too but just before I left she hit me up for some money for lunch because she forgot. So then Crystal and I arrived back at the RHS with two minutes to spare. It's so much fun to ride with someone my age because they're all crazy drivers.
The concert went really well last night aside from some 7th grade chica puking in the bleachers but I didn't see it or anything so I was happy with that. Everything else went as planned and I didn't get too nervous but I've come to except my nerves because as Santy says it keeps me on edge. Unlike today after school when I went driving with my dad. I was so relaxed I forgot to adjust my mirrors, and my seat so I was driving with my legs completely extended and I couldn't see anything behind me. I fixed the mirror within 2 minutes of driving but I didn't realize the seat was so far back for at least 10 minutes and then on the hwy going about 55 I adjusted it as well as my blury contact. My dad wasn't too happy with me but I didn't go out of my lane or anything although I should've been more aware as soon as I got in the car. I'm such a dip even though Crystal drove worse than I did. She was going 50 in a school zone but it was ok since we didn't get pulled over although I'd never do that.
I'm dling '8th World Wonder' by Kimberely Locke on Sarah's pc and I hope she won't kill me because it's a really good song because it makes me think of Job. Today in band we were debating on which song we wanted to play for competition. We played through a song called 'The Last Battle' (I have 3rd part) and it was so inapropriately named because it was pure stealth so I decided to call it 'James Bondish'. Then Zunker asked us if we knew the history after we played it and Job said the war of 1812 and Zunker almost had an accident because he was so excited someone knew. Then Job's like uhh! I'm smart. It was so cute. Besides the fact the whole time he was kicking my butt through my chair (playfully) and I stole his shoe twice.
The other song we sight read I had 1st part on and it's called something like 'The Hobbit' or something and it's the 5th movement of a series and it's on loan to us from another band because it's like $150. Some other school in southern WI played that song and the other 4 movements. They started with the first movement and each year they did the next movement so after 5 years (one year for each of the 5 movements) they finished the series and put it all together on a cd and Zunker had the cd and after we played through it once he played the cd and he said 'Personally I think you guys can perform this piece a lot better'. I could hear every mistake they made and although I admit I couldn't play it nowhere near perfect the first time through I know I could easily get it down in a month. I absolutely loved our arrangement done by Holsinger called 'Suite in E Flat'. The three movements were so different but each showcased a different section and quality and they definitely challenged us which definitely wasn't a case with 'The Last Battle' and 'The Hobbit'. I know March Slav is a gorgeous piece and it challenges the hell out of me but Zunker informed us the 6 pages of it was too long.
I'm calling Job back in 90 minutes and I really don't have anything to do until then besides writing in here and I'm sure people would kill me if I wrote another 14 paragraph novel about the trials of my life which basically amounts to/translates to: CRAP. Hehe. Sorry to those who actually read this. Oh, I know what I'm going to do. I'll be right back so I can go find a poem I wrote a little while ago and post it on here. I haven't thought of a title yet but I just want to post it before I forget about it.
Kiss him
Go out on a whim
I think
Don't blink
Stare into his eyes
Take him by suprise
This infatuation
Pure elation
Hand in hand
At his command
Of my impression
One confession
Of my heart...
Only the start
Thinking too much
The want of his touch
Still dealing
With this feeling
Part of me unaware
Of how much he cares
Does he know?
Of what I show
So much I keep
To myself I weep
Soon I'll let him see
All there is of me
It's truely all over the place but I wrote it a few weeks ago. I remember feeling so supressed about my feelings and how there was this barrier for some reason that whenever I just wanted to kiss him I wouldn't let myself. I think it was because I felt our first kiss came too soon so I could regain the standard previous to that by not kissing him again for a while? I'm not quite sure myself but I just wanted to post the poem for my Job. Yes, he's mine and no one is taking him from me ever. I thought (although I didn't want to say anything to him) that when he said he couldn't stand seeing anyone else with their hands on me that it was really possessive but I thought about it and I couldn't stand seeing another girl being affectionate with him either. So I have to go now because Sarah has to do her homework so that gives me an hour to do nothing.
Mandy ~ 7:07 PM