~The Music of My Life~

Sunday, April 25, 2004

Nostalgia Isn't the Word for IT

Here's what my horoscope said for today... well actually yesterday seen as it's quarter past 3 am.

You should expect to be feeling a bit nostalgic -- that way, when those tears start stinging the back of your eyes, you won't be surprised. Before you get depressed, consider someone's offer to introduce you around. What a great distraction!

That was so amazingly on too. I'll start from the beginning. I woke up and remembered part of a dream (just another stupid one of me cheating on Job although it's NEVER going to happen). Then Job called a bit later (around 3 or so) and we talked on the phone for a while and made plans for the movies. Then I met up with Job, Brandon, Brenda, Heather, and Brenda's bf around 6:30. We saw Ella Enchanted and it was good but not as good as the movie I saw with Emily the previous night and I wished I could've spent more time hanging out with her too. We didn't really get to talk as much as I wanted to. We skimmed a few topics and others here and there and then of course the main event was watching the movie (13 Going on 30) which was really good and I especially loved the message it sent. Thanks Emily.

So then after the movie today all of us were hanging out in the main lobby or whatever you'd call it and we were messing around with the advertisements and Brenda and her bf had cameras and were taking pictures of us doing weird things and Brenda got quite a few of me in unexpected circumstances like me having my back to her and then her jumping around and snapping one in my face.

Then after all that fun and my paranoia at how bad those pics of me are going to be I got home. I proceeded in talking, and singing with Kate and Mike and then eating, watching Good Will Hunting with mom, Kate, and Mike and now am here playing on the pc. I got bored and decided to go through my old blogs and look at the entries and copy my poems from them into the poetry part of www.Kiwibox.com which is a really good girly site where I play games and kick back as a girl. Around late September or early November I started seeing copies of very long convos and I read one that made me cry repeated times... one of the first convos I had with Zach Farris. I remember being so estatic and just wanting to be in love and not really any of the right reasons after just ending a bad fling to start another.

This is one of the things I wanted to talk to Job about but after talking to a bunch of girl friends and finding out the same thing happens to them I was somewhat discouraged from telling him. Besides the fact that I never got to sit down with him and have some quality one on one time to be able to tell him.

Now I'm talking to Jeff and sending him pics of whatever and actually I've been talking to him for at least about 6 hours now seen as it's 5 am. Well I'm going to get going because technically I should be sleeping, too bad I'm an insomniac.

Mandy ~ 5:02 AM