Well, not quite but I did cry and it was my b-day on Sunday but no one would know that... My family remembered and Joe sent me an e-card even though I don't recall telling him it was... Things have been and are so difficult and complicated and with the realizations of life it's only been getting worse so I ask of you to 'hit me hard with that heavy a book and maybe a glance will disappear of a look...' Yes, doesn't make any sense but neither does my life so it works for me. The funny thing is, in essence it'd be the volume of the knowledge within the book that would (hopefully) wipe my memory but I fear the same thoughts will still linger, ever threatening without my scape of knowledge to save me from them...