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Monday, January 23, 2006
If Only...
If only I wasn't offended when someone said the college I was going to was for stupid people, if only I didn't do stupid things that upset Job and my family, if only I knew how to be more tactful in what I say and realize that my only nazi teacher thinks lower of me because I don't drive and he thinks it's because of something I did when really it's because of something I didn't do, which leads me to the if only I bitched and complained more about not having a license so my parents would go driving with me instead of being compassionate when there's sooooo much shit going on in my family (that I will never discuss with anyone else besides maybe Job because it's really irrellevant and better kept to oneself anyway) that I shouldn't bother them further with my annoyance and embarassment that I'm almost 20 and I still don't have my license and further yet, I do have my own car, which leads me to the funny thing that my dad refers to it as theirs (my parents) when I was the one who bought and paid for everything except for the 3rd key that my dad had made without even asking me because he thinks I'm soooo irresponsible that I'd lose it... one key in my purse, one on my desk in my bedroom, and one either on the hook or in the car unlocked itself (the last truly depends on when last someone else besides myself drove the car) .
I'd like to say a few things and hopefully not make Kt feel bad even though she inadvertently did so unto me... About Nicolet... it's a college, yes the Dean's List is only at a 3.5 as compared to a 3.75 at the UW's but... Nicolet is not a UW and if it were, you would not have been accepted and you should be thankful for that because you were on the brink of not being so. Here's another thing... and I know because I work in a position where I have come to learn (and maybe even find out although I should not for I am a student) certain things through my elders and professors. Your teachers were very generous (like Lois) with you because they genuinely care and yes, another difference of the UW is exactly that. Nicolet allows late students and I help the professors with them... bet you didn't know that. I have to go out of my way to do extra things for students not enrolled on time so they are accomodated. I would never have said a word had you not referred to Nicolet as a "stupid" college but I like it there, and I deeply appreciate the work that is done for I have to do quite a bit of it myself and have appreciation for the sympathetic professors that are lenient for students like you and who may even consider the college to be a joke under one's standards but it is not.
I remember sometime within the first week Lois mentioning something about the quality and standard of Nicolet and there are differences being a community college and there always will be differences between that and a UW but any UW accepts all transferable credits from Nicolet showing that Nicolet is at the standard of the UW's. I really shouldn't be writing this because Kt is going to end up feeling worse but as I said in a recent post I'm no longer writing/am here to please and accomodate others. I write these words of thoughts and feelings from my knowledge and my heart and I wholly believe them in their entirety. I was deeply offended by Kt's comment and I'm not going to take it inside of myself where I'll let it devour me as I often have in the past. Maybe you think 'Well, I should take that up with Kt personally' and you might be right, but ever since I've told anyone I'm going to Nicolet I've gotten some acceptance but a lot of sneers of disgust, looks of shock, and looks of "she's going nowhere" and it's time I've publicly or at least to those of my friends that have this blog, defend my choice for I believe it was the best, beyond any UW that I can; not afford, would have a hard transition, and probably not be able to cope with it alone.
Until I find my... je ne sais quoi... hmmm, my niche, my little boca raton (slice of paradise) I know that where I am is where I'm supposed to be for now.
If only I wasn't offended when someone said the college I was going to was for stupid people, if only I didn't do stupid things that upset Job and my family, if only I knew how to be more tactful in what I say and realize that my only nazi teacher thinks lower of me because I don't drive and he thinks it's because of something I did when really it's because of something I didn't do, which leads me to the if only I bitched and complained more about not having a license so my parents would go driving with me instead of being compassionate when there's sooooo much shit going on in my family (that I will never discuss with anyone else besides maybe Job because it's really irrellevant and better kept to oneself anyway) that I shouldn't bother them further with my annoyance and embarassment that I'm almost 20 and I still don't have my license and further yet, I do have my own car, which leads me to the funny thing that my dad refers to it as theirs (my parents) when I was the one who bought and paid for everything except for the 3rd key that my dad had made without even asking me because he thinks I'm soooo irresponsible that I'd lose it... one key in my purse, one on my desk in my bedroom, and one either on the hook or in the car unlocked itself (the last truly depends on when last someone else besides myself drove the car) .
I'd like to say a few things and hopefully not make Kt feel bad even though she inadvertently did so unto me... About Nicolet... it's a college, yes the Dean's List is only at a 3.5 as compared to a 3.75 at the UW's but... Nicolet is not a UW and if it were, you would not have been accepted and you should be thankful for that because you were on the brink of not being so. Here's another thing... and I know because I work in a position where I have come to learn (and maybe even find out although I should not for I am a student) certain things through my elders and professors. Your teachers were very generous (like Lois) with you because they genuinely care and yes, another difference of the UW is exactly that. Nicolet allows late students and I help the professors with them... bet you didn't know that. I have to go out of my way to do extra things for students not enrolled on time so they are accomodated. I would never have said a word had you not referred to Nicolet as a "stupid" college but I like it there, and I deeply appreciate the work that is done for I have to do quite a bit of it myself and have appreciation for the sympathetic professors that are lenient for students like you and who may even consider the college to be a joke under one's standards but it is not.
I remember sometime within the first week Lois mentioning something about the quality and standard of Nicolet and there are differences being a community college and there always will be differences between that and a UW but any UW accepts all transferable credits from Nicolet showing that Nicolet is at the standard of the UW's. I really shouldn't be writing this because Kt is going to end up feeling worse but as I said in a recent post I'm no longer writing/am here to please and accomodate others. I write these words of thoughts and feelings from my knowledge and my heart and I wholly believe them in their entirety. I was deeply offended by Kt's comment and I'm not going to take it inside of myself where I'll let it devour me as I often have in the past. Maybe you think 'Well, I should take that up with Kt personally' and you might be right, but ever since I've told anyone I'm going to Nicolet I've gotten some acceptance but a lot of sneers of disgust, looks of shock, and looks of "she's going nowhere" and it's time I've publicly or at least to those of my friends that have this blog, defend my choice for I believe it was the best, beyond any UW that I can; not afford, would have a hard transition, and probably not be able to cope with it alone.
Until I find my... je ne sais quoi... hmmm, my niche, my little boca raton (slice of paradise) I know that where I am is where I'm supposed to be for now.
Mandy ~ 1:08 AM