~The Music of My Life~

Monday, January 16, 2006

One Lost Cause... Or a Cause Never Found?

I think the latter. I'm fine with how my life is and my friends and I don't need more and if I happen to make some then great but I'm sick of pretending to be friends with people that I don't like and/or people that don't really like me. Acquiantances... Hmpf.

Anyway, I like to laugh because now Job's at like 24 and 4 for wrestling and if he wins 6 more matches then his name will be put up on the board at RHS. That's not why I want to laugh though... I'm slightly confused and I probably shouldn't be writing this in here but I'm stupid and I trust people. When Job came up and sat next to me at the Medford meet at one point Eddy saw us and happened on up and sat on the other side of me. Yay, Amanda sandwhich between two great wrestlers, haha.

Eddy saw a lose hair from me on my upper leg and went to pick it off and Job jumped him all like "WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!". I laughed and said "It's ok Job. He was just taking a hair off from my pants" and I thought nothing more of it. Eddy asked how the love life was and I laughed and said great and asked him and he was like yea yea, it's good and I asked "Did you pork her yet?" and he turned red and said he didn't. I just had to say that because it embarasses him that I found out him and Brady made a bet last year about whether or not Job "porked" me. I also have another great story on him that he told me himself and he turns about 10 shades of crimson when I mention that one!

I love embarassing Eddy but good times we've had like at one of the track meets and he sat next to me on the bus and was eating fried chicken and offered me some but instead I took his drink and he said "Good, you can hold it for me woman!" and then Makris freaked out and made the guys and girls split up and girls got the back for once! Eddy made a big deal out of it saying something like "But the woman's holdin my drink" and he knows I hate sexist guys and he loves to joke like that around me because he knows just how to push my buttons. Edwin, you little weasle.

Then when we got to the meet we ran the track twice, which is the same size as RHS's track (can't remember what school) and then we were stretching out and Eddy touched me and screamed "Oh no! I got Amanda pregnant!" Then the guys were playing football and I grabbed the football from Kyle and pretended like it was Eddy's and my baby and I remarked at how he took after his father in the looks department and Eddy took the football from my arms and threw it and I made a big deal about how he treats his children and he just laughed and whatever.

I remember meeting Eddy... we had a Science class together and he was all up in my face about how I was a Senior and so much better than him and I asked him what his beef was and finally he got to know me and was nicer to me. Eddy... I think he just wants to be accepted and it's weird because he doesn't even go to the parties... he admitted to me that he's never gone to a single party and I thought it was really weird because he's... Eddy Stefonik. I remember dancing with Wes and having this hot picture where Wes was holding my leg up around his waist I think my freshman year at Homecoming when Wes was a Senior?

Anyway, so Eddy's been cool and whatnot but then later in the day (at the Medford meet) he did something weird that made me wonder. It was the end of the meet and I was just messing with him and he had said after Job got done wrestling "Lets go get naked, Job" and everyone laughed because when Eddy's at a meet he's 100% focus and raw muscle waiting to take down his next opponent and so far he's undeafeated and then once the meet's over he's playful Eddy again. Then after Eddy came in from the showers Job was still taking his and I asked Eddy where his shower partner was and he just shrugged and sat down on Bradon Lewis's mom's lap, which was hilarious.

I stayed up in the stands and saw Job come in and sit in front of his mom and she rubbed his back and shoulders and it was so cute so I just decided to hang back and let them have some time together seen as whenever I'm around him he ignores everyone else. I even got a woman from another school (Edgar I believe, purple was their color...) to cheer for Job when he was wrestling, which was really cool and I ended up talking to her a lot even though I didn't know her but it was cool. I noticed Job picking something out of Pam's hair and thought it was cute that he was grooming her in a way and then he noticed me and practically ran up the bleachers and laid on top of me.

I asked him later about what was in Pam's hair and he said he was eating a cookie and he asked her where I was and he spit a chunk of cookie in her hair and it was so funny because then Pam told me in the car on the ride home saying "Yea, I thought he was picking out a fuzz and then he told me he spit in my hair" and then Dana quipped in "Nice to know what your son thinks of you". It was just funny all the way home because the three of us (Job has to take the bus home) got into a bunch of topics, one being gossiping and Dana lecturing Pam not to gossip because Pam was asking me if I'd heard anything and she'd told me what she'd heard lately about anything. Then about the gangreen (sp.) carrot and how Pam was slowly poisoning Dana with ranch dressing and all sorts of funny things.

Anyway, back to the weird thing with Eddy... When Job pulled me down to where everyone else was, we were all just standing there and I kept pulling off Eddy's hat which wasn't even on his head because he was trying to be funny again by leaving it hang off funnily. Then I was just standing there and teasing him and lightly kicking his shoulders. I almost drifted off when I felt something in my uhhh crotchital region... and I looked down and it was Eddy's foot and my eyes got wide and I said "You can't hurt me, I'm not a guy" and he said "Wasn't trying to, I was just teasing you"... and by the time he'd said the second half I'd already punched him (not that hard) and Job who was off in his own little dream world turned and said "WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO MY GIRLFRIEND?!" and Eddy and I just looked at him and I said "I think he was trying to see if I was a guy or not" while laughing and then Job punched Eddy who laughed at my joke because Job didn't find it the least bit funny.

SO... here I sit wondering why Eddy put his foot in my uhhh crotch and telling me he was teasing me... Once I jokingly gave him a link to my hotornot site and he said on msn "Woah, you're smoking, I gave you a 10!" and I was kind of embarassed and jokingly said "Oh, thought you'd give me a 1 or something since no one would ever compair to Kelsey" (his gf). He just said "Naw, just because I'm with her doesn't mean I can't look at other women" and I quickly changed the topic because it had become uncomfortable and weird. Job thinks Eddy was just messing with me and I hope he's right...

Because, if not, I think I'm going to cry that the only guy friend I've ever had that hasn't hit on me is gay. Why is it that when you get close to a guy that you're not going out with and you share things with him that he thinks you want him/you think he's hot? Why would anyone want a weirdo like me besides my perfect weirdo mate, hehe. I love you Job, my hunny and I hope you're right.

Mandy ~ 11:37 PM