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Monday, January 30, 2006
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Ok, so I can't always put my feelings into words anymore so I make up words and combine words that aren't even similiar, and maybe I talk jibberish (seriously, I'm soo sorry Job you were there when I got that bad, I don't even remember if not for you telling me), my headaches that make me ultra-sensitive to light and sound and get so bad I white out and choke back vomit, and maybe I get too weak to even stand, I lose my appetite on the smallest whims for days at a time and then become famished and eat everything in sight, and maybe I just randomly pass out and have little twitches (ok, big very noticable seizures) and maybe I even coughed up some blood yesterday and funnily all of these things tend to keep me awake, go figure, BUT I don't want to go to the doctors!
asdkhf;ahfd;afadf! Randomly all these symptoms just keep compiling and it's really aggravating me that none of them go away. Ok, fine give me the head-splitting headaches but then make the nausea go away or let me be 99% I can't think of the word and it makes me want to scream out of frustration... my cognitive majobys, give em back now. Or I'm really going to start using the words I make up like slunched today and coradode. It's just funny that I have so many symptoms
As for the apology to Job... I really upset him the other night when I got one of my headaches and I was in and out of consciousness and I guess I was talking jibberish, seizing, and crying in my sleep and he asked me why and I said pain. Yea, if the roles were switched I would've gotten upset too, but I know they aren't going to find anything wrong. It's just side effects from my concussion 14 months ago.
The only reason I'm typing this crap in here is because I think (when I'm not insane or whatever, complacent, there we go) I might be around one of you guys some time and have a seizure and I don't want you to get scared over nothing. That and I hate telling people in person because then they tell me they're sorry and they feel bad and I don't want none of that crap either. Ok, thanks for caring but I dislike pity, a lot. So thanks for letting me ramble on and get my aggressions and frustrations out because it's really been eating me up. Have a nice night.
Ok, so I can't always put my feelings into words anymore so I make up words and combine words that aren't even similiar, and maybe I talk jibberish (seriously, I'm soo sorry Job you were there when I got that bad, I don't even remember if not for you telling me), my headaches that make me ultra-sensitive to light and sound and get so bad I white out and choke back vomit, and maybe I get too weak to even stand, I lose my appetite on the smallest whims for days at a time and then become famished and eat everything in sight, and maybe I just randomly pass out and have little twitches (ok, big very noticable seizures) and maybe I even coughed up some blood yesterday and funnily all of these things tend to keep me awake, go figure, BUT I don't want to go to the doctors!
asdkhf;ahfd;afadf! Randomly all these symptoms just keep compiling and it's really aggravating me that none of them go away. Ok, fine give me the head-splitting headaches but then make the nausea go away or let me be 99% I can't think of the word and it makes me want to scream out of frustration... my cognitive majobys, give em back now. Or I'm really going to start using the words I make up like slunched today and coradode. It's just funny that I have so many symptoms
As for the apology to Job... I really upset him the other night when I got one of my headaches and I was in and out of consciousness and I guess I was talking jibberish, seizing, and crying in my sleep and he asked me why and I said pain. Yea, if the roles were switched I would've gotten upset too, but I know they aren't going to find anything wrong. It's just side effects from my concussion 14 months ago.
The only reason I'm typing this crap in here is because I think (when I'm not insane or whatever, complacent, there we go) I might be around one of you guys some time and have a seizure and I don't want you to get scared over nothing. That and I hate telling people in person because then they tell me they're sorry and they feel bad and I don't want none of that crap either. Ok, thanks for caring but I dislike pity, a lot. So thanks for letting me ramble on and get my aggressions and frustrations out because it's really been eating me up. Have a nice night.
Mandy ~ 10:53 PM