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Thursday, December 21, 2006
What Now?
I'm simply getting annoyed with myself. What am I doing? I made plans to work out with Dane and Christian and they kind of blew me off and just hung out at Dane's house. I honestly don't care if they want to have a boys night but it sucks when they made plans for me and they didn't even call me to cancel. It's curteousy... common knowledge, right? If you make plans with someone and can't follow through, you call and tell that person so they don't wait for you. So they don't waste their night being alone... waiting. It sucks.
So then Dane calls me when Christian's leaving... of course, they already had their fun. Now he's bored and I'm the one to go to. I'm not a pick-me-up. No one should be the bored escape for anyone else. I could've hung out with my sister or a friend or multiple friends tonight but instead I sat home and watched tv and at least I had my mom for company. I'm upset and I'm not sure I have the right to be. Do I? I was blown off... Yesterday after working out we were all talking before we went to Walmart and Christian said he had a dr. appt. and he'd be back in town around 6 ish and Dane had work until 5:30 and since Christian kind of blew off Dane and I for working out to talk to Keena he wanted to work out tonight. So we called it a plan to get together around 6.
So why do I feel like the bad person for being upset about it? My whole life I've had friends and family walk over me to get what they wanted without a fight on my part. Now, when I allow myself to care about myself I feel selfish and unjust. Dane called me up as Christian was leaving and I blew him off because I wasn't about to be the one to wait around for his call. He sits there on the other line and says sorry and calls me pet names like hun and babe and thinks it's all right but it isn't. He hurt my feelings when he blew me off. I just don't feel right being upset about it and I don't know if that's because I didn't resolve it with him and instead I'm here, writing this upset blog or because Dane's just... relationship ignorant or nieve. I need to stop...
How hard is it to dial 7 numbers?
I'm simply getting annoyed with myself. What am I doing? I made plans to work out with Dane and Christian and they kind of blew me off and just hung out at Dane's house. I honestly don't care if they want to have a boys night but it sucks when they made plans for me and they didn't even call me to cancel. It's curteousy... common knowledge, right? If you make plans with someone and can't follow through, you call and tell that person so they don't wait for you. So they don't waste their night being alone... waiting. It sucks.
So then Dane calls me when Christian's leaving... of course, they already had their fun. Now he's bored and I'm the one to go to. I'm not a pick-me-up. No one should be the bored escape for anyone else. I could've hung out with my sister or a friend or multiple friends tonight but instead I sat home and watched tv and at least I had my mom for company. I'm upset and I'm not sure I have the right to be. Do I? I was blown off... Yesterday after working out we were all talking before we went to Walmart and Christian said he had a dr. appt. and he'd be back in town around 6 ish and Dane had work until 5:30 and since Christian kind of blew off Dane and I for working out to talk to Keena he wanted to work out tonight. So we called it a plan to get together around 6.
So why do I feel like the bad person for being upset about it? My whole life I've had friends and family walk over me to get what they wanted without a fight on my part. Now, when I allow myself to care about myself I feel selfish and unjust. Dane called me up as Christian was leaving and I blew him off because I wasn't about to be the one to wait around for his call. He sits there on the other line and says sorry and calls me pet names like hun and babe and thinks it's all right but it isn't. He hurt my feelings when he blew me off. I just don't feel right being upset about it and I don't know if that's because I didn't resolve it with him and instead I'm here, writing this upset blog or because Dane's just... relationship ignorant or nieve. I need to stop...
How hard is it to dial 7 numbers?
Mandy ~ 10:14 PM